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  1. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 105 - stopped journalling but still going without P. Feels good to be back here today.
  2. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 81 - thinking about how I started on here and man I'm grateful for the progress. Days have been much easier and porn doesn't occur much to my brain now - when I get urges my mind is always on having a good time with my girl and nothing else. Those too can be destructive because I'm tempted...
  3. arandomguy

    Lazarus

    Hey Sam.. it's been quite the while. Glad you're still fighting. When we stop fighting, that's when we lose. About effects on the body, I didn't realize how true that was until I was on this journey. The exhaustion and sloth that follows it is crazy bad. And that just adds to the list of sins...
  4. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 69 - it's been a good but busy day. Haven't had any urges today and happy for that. Also the first time in ages that I've journalled on back to back days. Happy days..
  5. arandomguy

    My Journal

    I should get one. Yeah, it's pretty crazy how sexualized everything is. Doesn't make recovery any easier.
  6. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 68 - I've fallen to MO again and wasn't pretty. Really erodes from the process. Hate it so much. Felt a really really strong urge for P today..ended up M'ing. Going on to twitter to pass time and seeing something very sexual on the trendlist made it worse. My whole body wanted me to click on...
  7. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Great work man! It does..but you have to have something else occupying your mind in it's place. Otherwise it doesn't really. But some days are just as hard, just further in between.
  8. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 61 - 60+ days in. Very grateful for the progress 💯 We keep pushing
  9. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 53 - resolved today to leave twitter once again. I got back after a while due to a learning project and made a creeping habit of spending more and more time. I've realized it's getting harder to leave and easier to get tempted since then. I won't deactivate because of the project but won't...
  10. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Thanks man! Really hoping to get there and keep on till my time here is done.
  11. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 51 - no status updates the past 9 days. Not good. But thankfully I'm still counting the days. Day 60 coming soon! Edit: I couldn't have posted today without my gf pushing me!
  12. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 42 - getting really inconsistent now. It's been a busy week but that's no excuse.. I shouldn't be going this long. Grateful that I'm still on the journey. Started a bible reading plan with a friend to help each other on this.
  13. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 38 - M'd again today. I M'd last week during a low time and that set off a bad precedent. I want to completely avoid PMO. I'm grateful P hasn't been in the picture but I know once M becomes consistent, it's only a matter of time until P rears its ugly head again. That aside, I still hate MO...
  14. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 37 - it's been four days without journalling and I have much to say but I'm too tired rn. So just an update that I'm still going without P and feeling much better now, but also that I slipped up and felt really bad about it. I'll post more tomorrow hopefully.
  15. arandomguy

    Lazarus

    Glad this is how you're doing after your previous post. Keep going man. There's a light at the end of this depressing tunnel.. remember this is a momentary affliction..the joy that is to come far outweighs it. And even this momentary affliction will become lighter with time as we rewire our...
  16. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 33 - since day 30 it's been quite tough. Not too sure why for now. But it's been a constant battle with close calls - like yesternight. Pressing on though and I'll try to stick to early nights.
  17. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 31 - tough day. This evening especially has been hard. Found myself reading a sexual health article and almost went downhill after that. Just checked out minutes ago and planning to sleep straight away. Feeling really weak. Tough reminder of how easy it is to slip up and go back to day 1.
  18. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 30! This sure feels nice. We made it to 30 💪🏾 and I def don't take that for granted. The next thirty await..and march on we shall. Thanks to everyone on here who's been part of this journey this far. I appreciate you all!
  19. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 29 - been feeling quite low today. Church service plus many convos after cheered me up but low still. Today was hard when I went back home..but taking a nap helped with that. Woke up feeling low but without the urges.. praying has helped as I'm feeling quite a bit better now. I'll keep...
  20. arandomguy

    My Journal

    Day 28 - moving! Looking forward to 30 days and the next after that. This time it's felt easy.. although it really hasn't. I think knowing what one has to lose really helps with these - and many other such - journeys. It has been tremendously helpful the past 28 days.
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