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Hey man! Keep up the good work!

Woah! Been awhile since I have posted. I am happy to say I have abstained very well lately. Several months AND I have cut out fantasy as well which I had always struggled to do. My gosh! It has felt normal but this month my online business thing made enough for me to live off of - the money...

Followed a full schedule today and it worked out very well. I also did yoga in the morning so I could play team sports tonight - I was really craving that stimulation and excitement - it was great

Hmm - a bit up and down. I got too excited by a girl then too let down when it did not work out. Threw me off a bit - but I was productive yesterday and today I have been not following the schedule but taking only positive actions at least.

Well, I guess I haven't been around as much lately - but I'll give myself credit for consistently coming back and not say disappearing. I had some lapses a few days ago - I was feeling massive fear of failure and like dread and hopeless - just tons of fear. That led to it I'd say. So I MO'd...

Quite true, yeah I am viewing it as a job as it's not totally free in terms of what material can be posted. I think posting more often helps me a good bit

Well - I just got pretty upset but stopping by here has helped me detach. I worked REALLY hard on a video for youtube for days and it did poorly - it actually lost me a few subscribers - not an amount that makes any difference. But it shakes my confidence a bit, I worked so hard on it and...

Thanks! Yeah very good point I do pay rent for it haha.

Hey guys, so last night was good. I fell asleep with a lamp on but I still slept fairly well. I had some dreams about women - but they felt like healthy rewired type dreams - though I ought to be careful and not let that lead to too much fantasy which can trigger porn fantasy which is of...

I had a good day today. Discipline is the key - pushing through little resistance. Once I push through and get work done I feel very good after - and I am learning I can actually really enjoy focused work! I ate keto the last three days, then today makes four. The plan was to do keto for 3...

Thanks!!! Well - it's complicated haha. It is kind of like gossip honestly. Mixed with analyzing situations and personalities. It was not the plan but I read about going with it, even if you don't expect it in a youtube book. So my viewers are older women - I am aiming to treat it as a business...

I also want to point out - sometimes one just does not feel too good. Just something to keep in mind ! There is not always a reason. For example - maybe you feel bad, before during and after a workout - but still would have felt bad, before, during and after staying home. But with the workout...

Hey man good stuff! An issue I personally found is that when there has been an addiction listening to the body is pretty deceptive. Many people go years without masturbating without any issue, and if the body "needs" to release it happens through wet dreams and even through going number one...

Hey guys good day today. DISCIPLINE is key and something I am focusing on building. I did the most important thing early in the day and worked on videos and wow it takes such a load off - I 'd actually like to work on it more! I ate no carbs the last 3 days and my focus is better - though I...

This has definitely been my experience.

Hey guys, not been feeling good today. IDK - it's weird. But, taking it fairly easy. There is a yoga class I can go to this evening - all sorts of stuff in my mind like meh I don't want to travel etc. but when I have skipped things like that it has gone poorly. I am also physically tight - so...

Good to know - I have found masturbating while thinking about non real partners absolutely leads me down the rabbit hole and is a big problem. I have so much evidence of it. But good to be reminded of the issue of fantasy as that also is a problem.

So - I have continued to abstain which is good. I posted the video to my second channel - I thought it would do amazing it did poorly by my current standards. I felt a bit discouraged and thrown off. A bit off a lesson there I think - don't build ONE thing up to much, as that'll lead to up...

Thanks man - you are soo on the money about avoiding MO - and I have thought that, maybe for the future that settling down with a religious woman is the way to go. I don't think I am ready but if I did settle down yeah no way I'd do it with one of these typical women - it'd be a nightmare.

Quick check in - well still abstaining. Didn't follow everything I planned today - but I had a nice workout and really nice vacation day. I went out with some people for an outing and to eat and I am really glad I did. I really enjoy stuff like that and want to do more fun social things. So I...