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  1. Daybyday1988

    Back again to go all the way

    i pay for Covenant Eyes. what is great about it is you can put it on up to 4 devices, you can block any non porn website such as youtube, social media, hook up sites etc. and it allows you to have an accountability partner receive daily notifications of screenshots and even notify them if you...
  2. Daybyday1988

    I want to succeed at this as bad as I want to breathe

    glad to hear it buddy. Reading can be an incredibly useful past time and a good way to wind down before bed
  3. Daybyday1988

    A journal

    yes, im aware of the fact that masturbation alone is not necessarily the issue, provided you can stare at the wall or ceiling and just enjoy the feeling, (a rarity indeed I would say). The problem is the fact that it is very difficult for an addict to disconnect porn fantasy from masturbation...
  4. Daybyday1988

    Following the Light

    Same here. It's a way to just kind-of veg. Out and pass time. I read as well but It's always a challenging read like a textbook or the Bible so sometimes it does feel nice to do something mindless, even though I probably shouldnt. Oh brother what a beautiful story about the Lord! It brings...
  5. Daybyday1988

    Porn is not an option

    There is so much I would like to say, friend. Much of what you write I agree with and totally understand. Much of it is heartbreaking and deserves its own essay in response which I am more than happy to write if you were so inclined. But for now all I'll say is that i/we are here for you till...
  6. Daybyday1988

    A journal

    thanks. one last thing i would add about MO is the vast majority of the time as an addict, you are just fantasizing about porn while doing it anyway. The late great gary wilson said on his website "the difference between your brain and a screen is the mouse".
  7. Daybyday1988

    Back again to go all the way

    amen, badger. Its definitely the year for me, as im at 120 days free from pmo for the first time in my life. This is going to be your year too as long as you get disciplined and dont let your guard down. if you still find you are struggling, having a good blocking/accountability software on...
  8. Daybyday1988

    Finally sick and tired of being sick and tired

    Hey buddy, this journal is getting close to a year old now. Maybe you can try getting rid of your inernet capable devices or installing a good blocking/accountability software on them. Ive be using Covenant Eyes, but there are others. Im over 4 months clean, Been addicted for nearly 14 years...
  9. Daybyday1988

    A journal

    ive been there man, its hard to do but try your absolute best not to MO at all. it just reactivates all the old BS pathways you are trying to weaken. man, modern dating is pretty awful, isnt it? super glad i found my nice Christian wife and we had our son. it truly is terrible out there...
  10. Daybyday1988

    Following the Light

    That's encouraging to hear brother. And very happy that you are following Him! It reminds me of when He said this: Matthew 11:28-30 KJV "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart...
  11. Daybyday1988

    Porn is not an option

    I was an edger too, usually for over a hour I would be looking at P before getting off. Alot of us I suspect were because we can keep dopamine high for a long time and get more of a narcotic like effect VS just racing right into orgasm which probably would have Been healthier for our brains, at...
  12. Daybyday1988

    I'm 24, and I'm scared

    If you really want to break free from this I would adamantly suggest you remove your capability to access porn, as sheer willpower simply isn't enough for most of us due to the weakened prefeonta cortex that the addiction has caused. You can do this by getting a good blocking and...
  13. Daybyday1988

    Coding the Mind

    We are here for you bro, i gotta tell you in my experience and the data show the prefrontal Cortex in us addicts is too weak at first. It is imperative that you remove even the option to use through destroying your devices, or getting accountability/blocking software. Like you, i told...
  14. Daybyday1988

    My life is miserable - PMO stole my soul

    I hear you man. I stopped going to the gym after I got married. Really was a good thing for me even though I did enjoy going and exercising and got better workouts. I stopped going mostly due to the same issue you have, lust. Isn't really fair to my wife to be looking at immodestly dressed...
  15. Daybyday1988

    Following the Light

    Dang, no mobile version? I feel like most use their phone or tablet for this addiction as they can take it in bed with them easily. Definitely was the case for me. I like the accountability portion of CE as i know that if i even tried to access something i shouldnt, my accountability partner is...
  16. Daybyday1988

    Following the Light

    I hope so too. It's kind of embarrassing stumbling over words all the time. Yeah I never thought I would get to 120 days. I've Been trying (I guess I use that word loosely) for over a decade now. I heard about P addition and Gary Wilson and Gabe deem at least a decade ago but just couldn't...
  17. Daybyday1988

    My life is miserable - PMO stole my soul

    you are going to feel that way for awhile. your dopamine receptors are fried and it takes some time to recover form that. here is a good resource to check out as well as yourbrainonporn.com : https://pmoflatline.com/can-the-brain-really-heal-from-porn-use-your-answer/
  18. Daybyday1988

    Anhedonia - My experience - Will this ever go away ?

    Is this the statement you are referring to? "Abstinence from PMO is the cause of my anhedonia and PAWS in general. I have no doubts about this."? Again, I'm inclined to believe that he is saying the damage is from the P and that abstaining from it has caused these withdrawal symptoms. But...
  19. Daybyday1988

    Following the Light

    dude i feel the same exact way! now i feel like im barely able to string phrases together! im hoping it is a part of the P addiction and goes away with time but yeah i never remember it being this hard before my addiction begain 14ish years or so ago. im 120 days no pmo
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