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  1. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    One of the biggest killers for me is the shame and frustration I take out on myself when slipping up. I am trying to remember not to beat myself up and just continue on the progress that I've made. I try to remember that this is an issue that I will probably continue to struggle with for the...
  2. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I've been having more difficulty with temptation to look at porn recently and I think it was because of some additional stress in my life. My cravings have been getting completely out-of-control where I'm even jeopardizing my job because of porn viewing. I think it is time that I begin looking...
  3. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I have been going my Celebrate Recovery group now for several weeks. Our group has over a dozen guys and it's helpful to share our experiences together and give support. I'm the youngest guy there by far. Many of the guys are well into their 60's or 70's. I am so glad I was able to start making...
  4. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I found a 'Celebrate Recovery' group for guys struggling with addiction nearby. I'm going to stop putting it off and check it out. I think having face-to-face partners in recovery would be extremely helpful.
  5. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I notice there are always warning signs leading up to PMO. Frequent glancing at porn online, increased fantasizing, isolation and opportunity. I realize I made a mistake in leaving out my old smartphones when I was setting up electronic equipment. Back into the drawer they go.
  6. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I have been doing fairly well since my last entry. My PMO sessions are rare but are instead being replaced with a situation where I browse porn for a little bit until I get bored enough that my self-control comes back and I quit but then immediately relieve myself away from the computer. I still...
  7. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    Yes, unstructured lazy time is the worst for me. I've told my family about my problems and I have an 'open door' policy with my computer room. I also need to get into the habit of finding any reason to leave the house for a while when everyone is out. I crave stimulation and can find video...
  8. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    I'm getting at a point where I can mostly avoid porn but I still have a hard time going without masturbation at least once a week or so. This is still far better than where I was before and I don't feel nearly as depressed and fatigued afterwards as when I was PMO'ing all the time. I could...
  9. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    Had a bad week where I relapsed into PMO two days in a row. Once was because I stayed up late by myself alone and drinking which I knew was a bad idea. The other was from 'testing' out the porn blocker extensions on my browsers while I was alone at home which gradually turned into a relapse...
  10. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    Looking back at 2022 when I started my reboot journey, it is encouraging to see the amount of incremental yet consistent progress I have made. Now, with the new year, I look forward to tracking my progress to the next. We all wish that recovery from addiction can occur overnight but it is...
  11. anon4598

    Killing The Porn Monster In My Brain

    35 yo male. Single. I have struggled with porn for 20 years. Didn't realize just how miserable it made me until I listened to Your Brain On Porn and it completely opened my eyes. Over the years I had numerous opportunities with women who were clearly interested in me yet I did not reciprocate...
  12. anon4598

    Fighting the good fight.

    Fighting the good fight.
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