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Day 20/60 Things have been going well. Limiting phone use has been huge in avoiding triggers. I realized I follow a pattern of slowly allowing myself more concessions towards phone use until I pass the point of no return and view porn. For now, being as sober as possible from phone use is best.

Same 🤣

Again, this is very similar behavior that I have exhibited when I relapsed. I didn't realize it at the time, but with my gf having a strong feeling I was using and me lying and getting upset at her, I was gaslighting her to not believe and trust herself. I wasn't intentionally doing this. I was...

Sounds like how I act when I relapse. Not saying he did. Just saying

Update: Strong urge to look at some sexually stimulating content on my phone. Feeling a bit anxious for the work week ahead which has historically been a trigger

Day 18/60 I saw a hot girl at the grocery store. I tried not to look, but did end up briefly checking her out. I don't want to make girls uncomfortable in public, but damn its hard not to look at a hot girl. Maybe this is just my brain being fucked up by porn and over sexualizing women. Or...

Sure thing, thanks for the encouragement!

I think it's awesome you are staying away from caffeine and processed sugars as well as porn. They all produce similar effects of increasing dopamine in the brain. I've been thinking about cutting them out as well but am worried about cutting too much out at once

Yes, exactly! It feels like it trips the same pathway in the brain. It's funny how we can convince ourselves it's innocent 🤣

Day 17/60 I was scrolling on my phone and saw a couple triggering pictures. Also googled an actress to look at pics of her. Again, nothing explicit or overly sexual, but still this habit of searching for sexually stimulating content on my phone needs to stop. I'm playing into my addiction and...

Day 15/60 A few weeks ago I started smoking weed again, and last week I started smoking tobacco with my weed again. I must say it was enjoyable and an overall positive experience. However, for me smoking weed, especially mixed with tobacco can become too compulsive. I end up using it numb out...

Day 12/60 Last week I exercised two days and gratitude journaled 4. This week I wasn't to exercise 3 days and gratitude journal everyday

Day 11/60 My gf has been happy that we are having sex more often. I've been enjoying it too. When I was in the throws of the addiction, we were having sex infrequently and it took a toll on our relationship

Day 10/60 A few triggers have come up. 1. I went out to a bar to watch the USA v. Netherlands world cup cup and was looking at some hot girls 2. The meditation timer app I use shows profile pics of other meditators after you finish meditating. Twice there have been profile pictures of girls...

Day 9/60 I'm starting to notice signs of my dopamine receptors coming back to normal functioning. Normal tasks like cooking and cleaning are starting to feel more rewarding, like I remember they used to feel

Get back at it. Now you know it was all a façade. Porn has nothing real to offer. Let this be a jumping point into an even stronger streak. 9 days is great without P, but I know you are capable of giving up this addiction for good!

Day 8/60 I had some urges this morning. I masturbated a bit before work but not to the point of O. I've noticed I enjoy seeing attractive girls in public more since not viewing anything online. When I went to the grocery store I was looking around hoping I'd see an attractive girl lol. It's...

Day 7/60 No strong urges today. I've been thinking about something my therapist told me. She said that my porn addiction is covering up some other issue. If I wasn't addicted to porn I would most likely have some other addiction. I completely agree with that. In addition, she stressed the...