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Day 7 1 week clean! My devices are currently the most aggressively blocked they've ever been. I wonder how effective this brute-force approach to rebooting will work out. I've tried this before with the Covenant Eyes blocker, but long story short I would always figure out how to hack...

Day 6 Was facing some powerful urges yesterday but luckily all of my blockers were up and bulletproof so I couldn't watch anything. I tried though, which is embarrassing to admit. Anyway, another day without porn -Clouds&Dirt

Day 4 Another day without porn --Clouds&Dirt

Day 3 Already 10% to 30 days! I've been keeping myself busy with projects and exercise so no real urges. The closest thing to an "urge" is the horniness that comes with morning wood. I've also been writing in a little journal everyday, one or two sentences about why I need to quit watching...

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Thanks! The support from you guys on the forum really helps me "zoom out" and realize that this isn't just a "me" problem and I'm not in this alone. I appreciate it

Day 2 Gonna try to write consistently in here until at least day 30. I've found that I often get comfortable and stop coming to the forums after a while, but without the extra reinforcement, it's like I'm "letting my guard down" and am more likely to fail when urges strike. I'm still feeling...

Day 1 I made it through a decent streak but messed up. The relapse wasn't that bad, and what I watched was way tamer than what I usually watch, but at the end of the day, porn is porn, so I'm resetting my count and coming back to the forums for a while. I'll beat it for good this time...

Day 16 Another day -Clouds&Dirt

Day 13 I've been STARVING for some porn the past few days. So much so that I remembered something that I had completely forgotten about for months. An old phone. I found it and it still worked. All of my devices have blockers on them... but not this old phone. Like a moth to a flame, I...

Day 12 I've been doing pretty well in the gym recently. I'm always pretty consistent with working out, but I'm wondering if the extra pent up energy from not PMOing is causing me to push harder in the gym? -Clouds&Dirt

Day 11 Yesterday was tough. I actually attempted to relapse but couldn't break through my blockers, which I suppose is a good thing. Anyway, I'm much more clear headed today than yesterday. Hopefully I get at least a few days of relief before the next wave of urges hits me. Onward...

Day 10 Having a tough time keeping my mind away from sexual thoughts. Gotta keep myself busy today -Clouds&Dirt

DAY 9 🟩 🟩 🟩 🟩 🟩 🟩 🟩 🟨 Had a relapse over the weekend. Instead of resetting back to zero (which can cause more relapse) I'm going to continue my day counter. During the relapse I PM but did not O. Not that it makes it any better, but at some point I snapped out of it and didnt "finish"...

Day 7/30 I had a huge victory yesterday. I straight-up overcame a huge urge to PMO yesterday. I have given in to similar urges countless times, but yesterday I just... didn't. 1 week without porn! 🥳 -Clouds&Dirt

Day 5/30 I had an idea that both excites and scares me. I've basically exhausted all of the "strategies" I can think of (blocking my computer, journaling, affirming, marking days on a calendar, etc). So the logical next step is to escalate my efforts. I think the next step might be to see a...

Day 4/30 No pmo urges to talk about here. I do have an open question though, if anyone wants to answer. Does anyone have experience with telling someone about their porn problem? How did they react? Were they more or less understanding than you expected? -Clouds&Dirt

Hmm, I'll try this next time, thanks!

Day 3/30 I had to reset back to day 1 but I'm not in a bad mood about it because I made an insightful discovery. I think I identified one of my triggers... procrastination. I had a big problem I needed to face, and the urge to relapse got SUPER strong in those moments when I was...

Day 4 I can't really remember the specifics, but I had a dream where I was watching porn last night. I got close to O'ing but I stopped, telling myself that I don't want to go back to Day 1. After waking up, I was proud of myself for rejecting porn even in my sleep. I was also annoyed lol...