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I'm going through my posts again and wanted to check in and see how things are going for you! Thanks again for your comment. I just read your very first post and liked what I read! I'll be back to read more. Be well!

Thanks for the vote of confidence! Your name says it all! 😝

Hi Phineas. Thanks for your response. Sorry it's taken my so long to respond to it! How is your recovery going? Or are you recovered?

It's been over 6 ½ years since I first posted here! I am not giving up and I will NEVER give up until I am "recovered." What does that look like to me. Well, certainly, it is a factor of time, but that's just part of it. I figure if I can go for a year without indulging in porn, I can claim...

Thanks Gabe! Is there an easy way to download all of my posts so that I can review them offline?

I haven't used this site in awhile and although I've created 96 posts since I started using the site, I can't see more than the first 5 now! I've tried numerous ways to see more of my posts but I can't figure it out. Can someone help?? First I clicked on the number of posts and that led me to...

In the almost 30 years I've been struggling with Internet Porn, I can't remember having 90 days! With the start of this new year and this new decade, I feel that I am on my way. As always, I remind myself that I have NOT reached that goal yet and, therefore, need to remind myself to remain ever...

Just over a month of sobriety today. This next month is SO important since I've reached this milestone a number of times and then failed to reach 2 months or more. The thing which I will do differently is that, rather than just give lip service to the idea of making recovery my #1 priority, I am...

Recently I've been going through my old journals and decided that I would focus on my recovery journals. I was struck by one entry in particular in which I gave expression to the different voices in my head. I gave them free rein to express themselves as freely and as authentically as possible...

Just a few minutes ago I was reading a news magazine on my iPad. Often a story will peak my interest so I'll go onto YouTube to see if there's any video related to the story. One of my middle circle behaviors—those behaviors which have often to led to indulging in porn—is to follow-up...

As I have mentioned before, if one's focus is only on getting away from porn, it will be challenging to find long-term sobriety. There has to be some vision for your future and some soul-searching about what you really want! It might also be helpful to imagine what life without porn might look...

Last night I stayed up well after midnight using Stumbleupon, a site which brings you to random sites based on your preferences. Both the time of day and the activity are in my Middle Circle but I was feeling rebellious last night. I was aware of feeling horny and of wanting a sexual hit but I...

I'm very happy to have a month under my belt AND I'm aware that this is a good time to be extra vigilant and not get complacent! I can feel the addict within, that part of myself that would like to pick up where I left off. But that won't happen because I know which wolf to feed! Have you heard...

Yesterday, I visited the first college I attended—the University of Utah in Salt Lake City. I attended in 1980-81. Halfway through my second year my dad suggested that it would be a good idea for me to return to the East coast. This was because I wasn't doing very well in my academic classes...

I was at the library today and came across this book in the New Non-Fiction section: Escape from Dark Places. In it I found a section titled: What It Means to Recover. Since I talk and think about "recovery" a lot I was curious to see what it said. I liked what it had to say and I thought it...

I think the first time that I heard that it wasn't enough to get away from my addiction was from Jack, the leader of a men's group I was a part of for years. He was adamant that unless I had something compelling to replace my porn addiction with I wouldn't be able to get sober. Wise words! When...

As I get further and further along in my recovery I'm getting to understand self-control more and more. This evening I was going to watch a movie that I took out of the library about 5 or 6 days ago and have been trying to find time to watch. I thought tonight was the night but I had other more...

For around twenty years now I have read and re-read one particular book that I continue to find inspiration from. It is a book which has brought me back again and again to what I believe is the quintessence of spirituality. Like most of the great gems of spirituality, it transcends all...

I posted yesterday about the steps I would take to ramp up my commitment to my recovery. Unfortunately, they seem like empty words now. I mentioned getting out of bed before Noon and it's almost 4pm and I'm still in bed! I didn't go to bed at Midnight last night because I was talking with my...

Noticing a stronger pull towards porn today but I'm not entertaining the idea of using. There's a certain rawness which comes from sitting with the urges. I clicked on a link in a magazine app on my iPad today that would have led to some triggering images had it opened. It wasn't porn but a...