Hi,
I am in my early 20s and I want to get rid of this compulsion to watch porn and masturbate. I have been trying for 3 over years so far. For a while things were great. Now I am back at watching once weekly which sometimes lead to masturbation, not always; I recently placed my desktop in a relatively public space in the house.
I had enough of it. Enough is enough. I may not have attained a low so low the pain was unbearable, but this little pain I may feel (or big, whatever) might be worse. I do not suffer from ED yet I want to stop. I think suffering from it would actually help me to stop definitely. I struggle against the wind, which is hard because you can't fight the wind. Perhaps my only option is to compensate for every breath of wind and achieve stability.
Ex: To occupy myself more those days of the week where I have nothing to do. Vacuum has a nefarious way of filling itself for me.
I guess... this is a fight against vacuum (my only trigger lately is having nothing to do/ doing nothing planned. It is hard to do something when you do not want to do what was planned which is what happened to me today. I was to go meditate for the second time for 2h and I did not see the advantages so I decide to not go. Now I have a strong reason to go meditate for 2 hours)
Today I failed to steer clear of PMO. I will keep you guys posted on how the situation evolves perhaps once or twice a week.
X
I am in my early 20s and I want to get rid of this compulsion to watch porn and masturbate. I have been trying for 3 over years so far. For a while things were great. Now I am back at watching once weekly which sometimes lead to masturbation, not always; I recently placed my desktop in a relatively public space in the house.
I had enough of it. Enough is enough. I may not have attained a low so low the pain was unbearable, but this little pain I may feel (or big, whatever) might be worse. I do not suffer from ED yet I want to stop. I think suffering from it would actually help me to stop definitely. I struggle against the wind, which is hard because you can't fight the wind. Perhaps my only option is to compensate for every breath of wind and achieve stability.
Ex: To occupy myself more those days of the week where I have nothing to do. Vacuum has a nefarious way of filling itself for me.
I guess... this is a fight against vacuum (my only trigger lately is having nothing to do/ doing nothing planned. It is hard to do something when you do not want to do what was planned which is what happened to me today. I was to go meditate for the second time for 2h and I did not see the advantages so I decide to not go. Now I have a strong reason to go meditate for 2 hours)
Today I failed to steer clear of PMO. I will keep you guys posted on how the situation evolves perhaps once or twice a week.
X