bobbyperu
Active Member
So I've been suffering from PIED for roughly around 4 years now but I've only recently discovered that my issue was indeed PIED after stumbling upon Gabe's youtube channel. Honestly I can't even express how much relief I felt to discover that I wasn't alone in this struggle, having felt completely hopeless and that this is the state I would remain in for the rest of my life, some kind of sexless and introverted weirdo.
It's actually taken quite a lot of courage to even come to the point of starting this journal but I realised that that was part of the problem, keeping everything to myself, by starting this journal it opens up a dialogue for me to have with other people who are going through the same shit I am, which would be insanely beneficial to me because I really don't feel like I could talk to my mates about this. So whoever is reading this, you're the first person I've shared my issue with, congratulations.
Currently I haven't actually watched porn in about a month and I already feel my thoughts becoming more focused, my mind no longer feels like a gutter, my attention span is improving, I feel more motivated. I've still been frequently masturbating which I feel is a big issue for me because I've been utilising what a lot of people refer to as the "death grip" so I've also been significantly desensitised to touch as well.
As it stands at the minute, I haven't jacked off in 7 days, I'm feeling like this is the real start of my journey because I don't think I will gain any real benefit unless I abstain from porn (forever obviously) and from masturbation.
Tomorrow the girl I've been seeing is going to stay over my house and while this does absolutely fill me with anxiety, I feel as though I need to give myself a shot and see what happens, maybe I'll be able to have sex, maybe it'll be the worst experience of my life, who knows, only one way to find out.
I'll let you know what happens after tomorrow, cheers for reading guys, best of luck on your journey to becoming a better person.
It's actually taken quite a lot of courage to even come to the point of starting this journal but I realised that that was part of the problem, keeping everything to myself, by starting this journal it opens up a dialogue for me to have with other people who are going through the same shit I am, which would be insanely beneficial to me because I really don't feel like I could talk to my mates about this. So whoever is reading this, you're the first person I've shared my issue with, congratulations.
Currently I haven't actually watched porn in about a month and I already feel my thoughts becoming more focused, my mind no longer feels like a gutter, my attention span is improving, I feel more motivated. I've still been frequently masturbating which I feel is a big issue for me because I've been utilising what a lot of people refer to as the "death grip" so I've also been significantly desensitised to touch as well.
As it stands at the minute, I haven't jacked off in 7 days, I'm feeling like this is the real start of my journey because I don't think I will gain any real benefit unless I abstain from porn (forever obviously) and from masturbation.
Tomorrow the girl I've been seeing is going to stay over my house and while this does absolutely fill me with anxiety, I feel as though I need to give myself a shot and see what happens, maybe I'll be able to have sex, maybe it'll be the worst experience of my life, who knows, only one way to find out.
I'll let you know what happens after tomorrow, cheers for reading guys, best of luck on your journey to becoming a better person.