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Icandothis1102

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Day 32-

Easy day. Pretty relaxed so was able to get through it. No urges. Need to make sure I catch up on sleep. But even though I'm on low sleep, I still feel super energetic a lot of the time. Probs one of the benefits of no PMO. Let's keep going
 
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Day 34-

The journey continues. Easy day again. Kind of feel like I'm in a flatline but it's not that bad. I know that once it passes and I finally finish rebooting that all of this will be worth it. Definitely am a lot more happier nowadays and it's slowly increasing as the days pass. Right now my main priority is to catch up on sleep because I had a crazy hard week where I was extremely sleep deprived. Onto day 35
 
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Day 35-

A lot more relaxing day. No urges for PMO. It's weird, I've had a fully busy week and after one relaxing day I prefer to be busy again. Feel like I have so much energy to expend that I need to be engaged in something all the time. Plus being busy helps me not delve into negativity. I shall try make more use of my time
 
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Day 36-

No urges, no PMO. I was able to occupy myself more today. Could've done more with my time but its a start hey. Just gotta keep improving day by day. Things will get better only if you put in the hard yards for it :)
 
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Day 37/ Day 30?-

Well, bit of a bump in the road today. I didn't watch any P but i felt insanely uncomfortable down there. I think it was because i had way too much semen retention soi had to release. I know MO ing hinders the rebooting progress but since i didn't watch any P i think im gonna just reset my counter back a week. SO essentially this is day 30? I feel okay right now but we'll see how things feel in the coming days

My main goal in this is to rid myself of porn. And get rock hard boners once again since i think im being affected by PIED. So yeah i'm going to ensure i limit myself in regards to MO unless i feel this uncomfortable again, but i need to ensure i don't watch P
 
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Okay so I've hard a long hard think about and i feel like i should reset my counter fully. Yeah i was on a 37 streak but i told myself no PMO and even if i didnt watch P, i'd be lying to myself if i got to 90 days on this streak. After all it is a number and being no PMO free for 37 days is a huge milestone. It hurts a bit that i have to reset it but i want to prove to myself that i can hit 90 no PMO. I'm sure i've made massive strides already with my current streak but i'll have to build up to it again :)

Also i feel like i'm going to post every few days rather than every day here. I know its been beneficial for others who are reading this blog, but posting every day kind of makes me count and continuously keep thinking about how many number of days i've hit. At some point of my life i should stop counting and it should just be natural for me to not PMO.

Day 1 starts tomorrow. Apologies for whoever was tracking my progress and is motivated by my progress. I might've let you down but resetting my tracker and going again should hopefully tell you to keep being on your streak :)
 
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Well today is day 1 again. That's true jaw. I'm a bit disappointed but whats the point of dwelling on it. I'm sure within a week or so i'd be feeling the benefits of no PMO again. Maybe not to the full effect i was feeling on my streak but to some extent. I know i can conquer no PMO for 90 days +. Let's do this and keep improving myself! I'll post again at night, but as i said in my last post, i'll limit my posting to every few days or if i'm having a really bad day.
 
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Day 1- NOV 3:

Okay so we begin again. REMEMBER THE DISAPPOINTMENT YOU FEEL BECAUSE OF RELAPSING. LETS NOT GO BACK. It's fucking shit and i regret it but lets move on and get on a new streak which lasts forever. I'll post every few days as i said before
 
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