Giving up being a laptosexual

Hi everybody,
I'm a 38 yr old straight guy originally from the UK but now living in a European country. Writing this intro feels extremely weird although I've posted several times so I'm gonna just stick to the facts.
I'm 30 days into my reboot at this point - already a lot of good things happening but I was never a heavy internet user so possibly I don't feel the benefit as strongly as some others here. I also started M pre-internet and have generally been able to function sexually and M without P.
My reasons for doing this are - I want to be more present in sex and to really appreciate sex and making love instead of drifting off somewhere else in my head, I hate the way that porn exploits everyone that comes into contact with it, I don't believe it's possible to have healthy relationships of any kind with women as a viewer of pornography, I haven't had ED but I have had some delayed Ej and that's not cool.
I'm in a relationship that's complicated. I care very much about the girl I'm with and we have pretty good sex.
I have no intention of giving up M but am considering trying hard mode for a period of time to see how I feel as a result but I don't see anything wrong with M in principal.
Ok so this is really kinda factual and dry but I'm gonna come back to this and add more details. I'm actually drunk and tired right now and just wanted to finally put something up here.

I think that this site is an extremely important tool for healing. I've come to the conclusion that the people here have chosen to deal with a problem, the vastness of which is way beyond current cultural perception, and need support. Any trolling in this thread will be ignored and reported. This is not that kind of website. Debate is only helpful as a means to the end of freedom from porn.

Best wishes and my hopes for your success :)
 
Short update: this is really working. I feel great without porn. Unfortunately, I have a lot of "porn memories" that are hard to get rid of. They come up and I feel like they're muddled up with my real sex memories. (*trigger warning*) But a great thing that I see as a breakthrough is that I came doggy style - that hasn't happened for 15 years! After her. I'm really happy about that. That's a huge sign that this is working. For so long I've only ever finished in missionary.

I realise I'm saying that this is working as if it was some temporary project but my mind has been made up for a while now. Porn is not an option for me. Watching porn is not acceptable for me any more. Now that I've stopped and seen what it was doing to.my sex life, my mind is crystal clear about it being unacceptable for me.
 
40 days! I'm feeling like the cravings and negative feelings that drew me back to porn previously are not so strong now and I'm building a habit of not watching P when I MO. Where I'm finding it difficult now is sticking to thoughts and memories that are not related to the artificial stimulation and extreme acts of P. But definitely as time goes by I'm forgetting that P used to be almost a regular part of my daily routine. Now I hardly think about it. It's certainly more difficult when I'm feeling weak and tired or hungover so I'm trying to keep fit and healthy.
 
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