If you relapse once after 1 month during reboot, you start again?

[Excalibur]

With this questions I would like to know that I made a big effort keeping out from P since 1 month and a half. But I relapse. I suffer DE and PIED. I am on a flat line. My question is...After relapse my reboot start again? Or the time I have been without P counts for recovering faster? I relapsed twice. Last saturday half and hour watching P. PMO'd and Sunday morning I spent 2 hours with PMO'd.

 

[starlord]

It won't affect much ,i think you start to binge for porn. Better avoid it may led to loss the reboot benefits

 

[Excalibur]

Thanks, I was one year with no PMO'd and it was great after that. But after I finished the drug program I relapse and progressively fallen down in addiction everytime deeper. As you said you also are loosing the reboot benefits little by little.

 

[klarson27]

I think people are getting hung up on the reboot process with the understanding that it's a defined point in time that you are abstaining from porn. If you're truly recovering from porn addiction then I'm thinking the goal is to never use porn again right?

If that's the goal then yes, you've reset your progress by using porn.

 

[Kubrick316]

It's a negative in that you activated the brain pathways built in for PMO and you can't eradicate those pathways if you reinforce them by binging on P, but it's not as bad as you think.

You said you binged twice to PMO, but those were the only two times you binged in the last month, right? That's still pretty great progress thus far, especially if you're someone who would O every day or every other day, whether it was a PMO or MO. There will be many bumps, but your progress isn't wiped clean because of a couple of slip ups, you're just impeding it.

If you really want to hold yourself accountable for any potential slip ups, use this PMO spread sheet from YBOP:

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1xPMpKBbjdKpW6Lo3C-F1Lln25rpwL-ZTmYbC0X1XXsk/edit#gid=0

If there's one thing that helped me snap out of my mistakes through this whole process, it was being able to quantify every O I had and see just what kind of progress I was making, if any.

 

[Excalibur]

Thanks a lot  Kubrick316 and klarson27.

Now I am currently with DE that means that I cannot going into O even that my girlfriend M for large period of time. That's another thing I want to share because maybe I am going to have problems with her in the future. I am keeping a secret of my addiction to porn and I said to her that the problems are the pills (fluoxetine) that I am taken from my Bipolar Disorder what I am diagnose to. My brain is affected in many ways, when I am euphoric relapse It's easy and when I am depressed frustation drives me directly to P. On my case is hard, that's why medication is helping me out. If there is someone diagnose to Bipolar Disorder needs to have help from professionals cause P is a comorbidity to the disease, as can be drugs, games, gambling, shopping, etc...

 

[starlord]

Its okay to have some sort of depression like bipolar disorder, the doctors are not having awareness of porn addiction much and they treat with anxiety and depression. So regarding your girlfriend matter even with your absence from PMO still a healthy relationship with real girls is entertained no need to tell your addiction to her. Just avoid any kind of artificial stimulus, you will heal quickly.