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Hi everyone,
I'm new to this site. I've been registered for a while now, but honestly I hadn't had the courage to post something or talk about my situation so what I've been doing is reading posts here - to test waters - and see if it was a good idea to participate.
Needless to say I'm a porn addict. I've been masturbating to porn for 3 years now and I hate it. The worst part is that I've been meaning to change this situation but I always relapse.
Why I started masturbating I don't remember, but now I do it very often. Actually, I lost my virginity with my girlfriend and I hadn't masturbated once, I swear. I just never saw the big deal of doing it and actually considered it a sign of weakness - mental weakness -. Well, I guess I just have to swallow my own bitter words because now I've become what I've criticized so strongly in the past: an addict.
The greatest period of time in which I didn't masturbate by choice was 11 days and that was about 6 months ago, and now I'm struggling to reach a whole week when I say I won't masturbate until I relapse again. I'm starting to hate myself for it and I don't like the feeling :'(
I remember being reduced to tears and blaming myself for being so stupid in the past after breaking my promises of not masturbating to porn ever again.
I want to do sooo many things, and when I think of all the time wasted, of all the hours in fron of the screen of my laptop, I just feel horrible.
It's taking a lot of courage for me to write this - and I could say a lot more but I don't want to make this any longer for you all to read - but I really need help. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I don't want to masturbate to porn ever again.
Thanks for paying attention.
btw, English is not my native language - Spanish is - , so if there's something you don't understand in my writing just let me know.
Thanks again. bye.
I'm new to this site. I've been registered for a while now, but honestly I hadn't had the courage to post something or talk about my situation so what I've been doing is reading posts here - to test waters - and see if it was a good idea to participate.
Needless to say I'm a porn addict. I've been masturbating to porn for 3 years now and I hate it. The worst part is that I've been meaning to change this situation but I always relapse.
Why I started masturbating I don't remember, but now I do it very often. Actually, I lost my virginity with my girlfriend and I hadn't masturbated once, I swear. I just never saw the big deal of doing it and actually considered it a sign of weakness - mental weakness -. Well, I guess I just have to swallow my own bitter words because now I've become what I've criticized so strongly in the past: an addict.
The greatest period of time in which I didn't masturbate by choice was 11 days and that was about 6 months ago, and now I'm struggling to reach a whole week when I say I won't masturbate until I relapse again. I'm starting to hate myself for it and I don't like the feeling :'(
I remember being reduced to tears and blaming myself for being so stupid in the past after breaking my promises of not masturbating to porn ever again.
I want to do sooo many things, and when I think of all the time wasted, of all the hours in fron of the screen of my laptop, I just feel horrible.
It's taking a lot of courage for me to write this - and I could say a lot more but I don't want to make this any longer for you all to read - but I really need help. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I don't want to masturbate to porn ever again.
Thanks for paying attention.
btw, English is not my native language - Spanish is - , so if there's something you don't understand in my writing just let me know.
Thanks again. bye.