Zander Reboot - Light at the end of the tunnel
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zander13
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@Jeks Nah I don't need professional help. I've been through this before. It's lonely, yes, but nothing I haven't experienced and gotten past by myself.
Still feeling shitty, it's been 6 days of difficult times. I'm curious about how long this phase will last. Hope sooner rather than later. One thing I know is that it can't go on forever, and that fact is comforting.
I'll be a person one day.
Still feeling shitty, it's been 6 days of difficult times. I'm curious about how long this phase will last. Hope sooner rather than later. One thing I know is that it can't go on forever, and that fact is comforting.
I'll be a person one day.
worldlit4213
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Hey Zander, we're here to encourage and support you through your tough times! Don't give up and press forward, there's a light at the end of the tunnel!
Good determination, Zander!
I wouldn't apologise for posting anything here on this forum Zander. Post 20 times a day if that helps you, seriously! This forum is meant for helping each other and whenever you feel like there's something to get off your chest I'd take the opportunity here. Express all that you feel and experience if you feel like it, simply writing about it already helps a lot.
I can only imagine the difficulties you're going through, but you're the one experiencing them. Would it be of any help to write more in depth about what a shit day feels like to you? I guess you've already had every piece of advice thrown at you throughout your journey here so I believe there's little more advice that I can offer you. What I can write is that you've gone now about 1,5 years without porn which is an amazing accomplishment. You've been battling this addiction whilst dealing with mental issues, family, depression and whatnot. You're an example of resilliance and I trust that life will get better soon for you, it has to right?
Keep going forward!
I can only imagine the difficulties you're going through, but you're the one experiencing them. Would it be of any help to write more in depth about what a shit day feels like to you? I guess you've already had every piece of advice thrown at you throughout your journey here so I believe there's little more advice that I can offer you. What I can write is that you've gone now about 1,5 years without porn which is an amazing accomplishment. You've been battling this addiction whilst dealing with mental issues, family, depression and whatnot. You're an example of resilliance and I trust that life will get better soon for you, it has to right?
Keep going forward!
lOc100% true. Only after abstaining from porn, i realized how i used porn to escape from all the bad stuff in my life, so much so that it came as a real shock for me, when i got frustrated or upset and just craved for porn like an animal. Holy fuck, i remember how i didnt manage to do a task and how i just opened my laptop without any control like i was not myself. It was freaky.
zander13
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@Jeks I know man. I'm glad you've done what it takes, internally, to be where you're at. Good stuff!
I really disliked myself when I was younger. And that wasn't necessarily my fault, but it really tore me up. My self-esteem was so low. Took going to therapy and meeting people who were different to the ones I grew up with to see things from the perspective I do now. I believe that overcoming addiction is really about figuring out how to love yourself enough to want to truly quit.
I really disliked myself when I was younger. And that wasn't necessarily my fault, but it really tore me up. My self-esteem was so low. Took going to therapy and meeting people who were different to the ones I grew up with to see things from the perspective I do now. I believe that overcoming addiction is really about figuring out how to love yourself enough to want to truly quit.
zander13
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@Chris Yeah. Like the dude in the video said, I think it's worth asking the question "why am I doing this?" The issue is usually a little more esoteric than just pure science, though science is a major component of it and the truth when it comes to the nuts and bolts of recovery.
I'm at around 50-60% capacity still. It's going to take me 2 years, if not longer, to feel normal again. Sad truth that I need to swallow. Porn is like one of those specialized hunting arrows--it goes in easy, but it'll shred you up on its way out. In like a knife, out like a fishhook.
Fucking shite mate. This is what happens when you binge relapse after long streaks--don't do it folks.
I'm at around 50-60% capacity still. It's going to take me 2 years, if not longer, to feel normal again. Sad truth that I need to swallow. Porn is like one of those specialized hunting arrows--it goes in easy, but it'll shred you up on its way out. In like a knife, out like a fishhook.
Fucking shite mate. This is what happens when you binge relapse after long streaks--don't do it folks.