zander13
Well-Known Member
At the very end of a 5+ month cycle. I guess you could say that my recovery consists of long flatlines interspersed with mini reprieve periods.
The reason I know that I'm at the end is because of experience, instincts, the stuff I wrote on this forum in the past, and excel (I pulled the spreadsheet back up because I knew something was going on).
The end of a flatline is always the hardest. Been like that since I first started rebooting. So I'm in for some rough shit. Last night was the beginning, and shit got pretty nuts. A lot of negative emotion--mostly visceral anger.
I'm both excited and scared. Excited that I'm at the end of this flatline, but scared of how rough this shit will get. It's an expensive toll to pay.
Wish me luck. I'm at a pretty momentous point in my recovery. I worked hard to get to this point, and I've been waiting for it for a while.
Just over a week away from 30 months of abstinence.
Might be posting more for next few days just to cope with the bullshit.
I pushed back my move day till' Saturday because I don't want to be going through this shit whilst driving and/or sleeping on my cousin's couch. Hopefully this is the last time I have to navigate my life around these symptoms. I have a wedding on the 30th of April and I'd love to be feeling good considering I'm a groomsman.
The reason I know that I'm at the end is because of experience, instincts, the stuff I wrote on this forum in the past, and excel (I pulled the spreadsheet back up because I knew something was going on).
The end of a flatline is always the hardest. Been like that since I first started rebooting. So I'm in for some rough shit. Last night was the beginning, and shit got pretty nuts. A lot of negative emotion--mostly visceral anger.
I'm both excited and scared. Excited that I'm at the end of this flatline, but scared of how rough this shit will get. It's an expensive toll to pay.
Wish me luck. I'm at a pretty momentous point in my recovery. I worked hard to get to this point, and I've been waiting for it for a while.
Just over a week away from 30 months of abstinence.
Might be posting more for next few days just to cope with the bullshit.
I pushed back my move day till' Saturday because I don't want to be going through this shit whilst driving and/or sleeping on my cousin's couch. Hopefully this is the last time I have to navigate my life around these symptoms. I have a wedding on the 30th of April and I'd love to be feeling good considering I'm a groomsman.
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