Zander Reboot - Light at the end of the tunnel

zander13

Well-Known Member
Hey Zander, how you feeling man? Hopefully your feeling better today.
Things got better once I stopped it.


Yesterday was 37 months on the nose.

Sadly, I had a wet dream today. And it wasn't a natural one: it was pornified and gross. Fucked my head up something good. I think I had it because I watched a couple of movies/shows with smut in them. I didn't expect the smut either time, so I wasn't seeking it, but I still should have just avoided the movies altogether. I went against one of my rules. Twice.

I need to refocus on the goal: do not, under any circumstance, fucking relapse. It's as simple as that.

Avoid pornographic content, avoid sexualized content, avoid it all. Avoid the thoughts, the fantasies, the ogling--all of it.

That's what this is all about, at the end of the day: abstaining. I cannot undo 37 months of hard work. So I feel scared today. I'm scared of what this wet dream will do to me. It was really fucked up and synthetic and gross and just fuckin shitty. I could feel its negative effects on my brain occur as soon as I woke up. Just a downpour of acid slowly dripping from the top of my cranium. Porn is evil. That's the maxim. It's the devil, and it brings about devilish forces. Nothing about it feels good or true. The opposite of zen, grace, or whatever you'd like to call it.

New goal: Go back to a strict visual, and auditory diet. No smut. If there is ANY chance of nudity or sexualized content then just avoid it outright. This is a top priority, always. I didn't relapse or anything, but I do believe that wet dreams are avoidable if I stay away from garbage, at least the kinds of dreams that are as dirty as the one I had last night.
 

Scorpio1990

Active Member
Things got better once I stopped it.


Yesterday was 37 months on the nose.

Sadly, I had a wet dream today. And it wasn't a natural one: it was pornified and gross. Fucked my head up something good. I think I had it because I watched a couple of movies/shows with smut in them. I didn't expect the smut either time, so I wasn't seeking it, but I still should have just avoided the movies altogether. I went against one of my rules. Twice.

I need to refocus on the goal: do not, under any circumstance, fucking relapse. It's as simple as that.

Avoid pornographic content, avoid sexualized content, avoid it all. Avoid the thoughts, the fantasies, the ogling--all of it.

That's what this is all about, at the end of the day: abstaining. I cannot undo 37 months of hard work. So I feel scared today. I'm scared of what this wet dream will do to me. It was really fucked up and synthetic and gross and just fuckin shitty. I could feel its negative effects on my brain occur as soon as I woke up. Just a downpour of acid slowly dripping from the top of my cranium. Porn is evil. That's the maxim. It's the devil, and it brings about devilish forces. Nothing about it feels good or true. The opposite of zen, grace, or whatever you'd like to call it.

New goal: Go back to a strict visual, and auditory diet. No smut. If there is ANY chance of nudity or sexualized content then just avoid it outright. This is a top priority, always. I didn't relapse or anything, but I do believe that wet dreams are avoidable if I stay away from garbage, at least the kinds of dreams that are as dirty as the one I had last night.
You got this man, my flatline has been really bad this past week and my anxiety is bad as well. I made a appointment today and doctor wanted me to take meds but I honestly don’t want to. She told me once I take them it will get bad before it gets better in which I knew. This whole Anhedonia bullshit is what’s makes this hard. I definitely know how you feel bro.
 
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