K-Dot said:zander13 said:K-Dot said:I think the porn is one of the bigger reasons that we feel bad about ourselves, but It is not the biggest one. Sometimes we just put everything we hate about our life on one thing. I think the biggest reason we are fucked up in life is our laziness and not doing enough to get our shit together. That's my biggest problem, I don't know do you feel that way sometimes. I know I can get my dick back if I abstain from porn long enough and rewire, but getting my shit done, studying, doing something to improve myself it's harder part for me. Not having my own income, not being my own boss, I think it's the biggest reason why I'm depressed and not feeling confident sometimes, besides this porn addiction.
Don't relapse man, just think about all the pain it will cause and do you want to fall back in it
Yeah man I definitely have some stuff to improve. But honestly, I'm not worried about my work ethic or anything like that.
I just need to get this addiction out of my life. Period. It has been nothing but a negative force, and that's the truth. I'm not blaming anything on it, but in a way, maybe I am. It REALLY has done some serious damage to my life. It's science man. THe chemicals in oyur brain are responsible for EVERYTHING> Dopamine is the seeking chemical. When our dopamine is messed up, we don't seek the proper stuff. We believe that porn is the ultimate biological advantage, so our brains point us towards porn, as opposed to life. I have felt what it feels like to be close to rebooted, and I know how great it is. I have proof. It's night and day. The world starts to open up in ways I couldn't have even imagined, because I've been addicted my ENTIRE adult life.
Which is why I'm stopping at NOTHING when it comes to beating this thing. And my parents know this, and are now helping me. I am a talented writer and a enthusiastic, charismatic person, and all I need to do is beat this fucking addiction and I won't worry about the rest of life.
Sounds arrogant maybe, but those are the facts that I'm dealing with. I fucking hate this addiction, and I know how serious it is. To me, it is very, very serious. Akin to the serpent that fucked over Eve. The devil if you will. To me, porn addiction and porn in general is the devil. And trust me, I'm not a religious person. I don't read the bible, I don't go to church. It's just done so much damage to me as a person. Made me into a person I'm not proud of. My number 1 priority is beating it. No question.
I am talking in general, The most journals I read I see that shit happening. I told you once, just keep journaling. I wish you all the best my brother, you gon beat this
You're right though. I think you're in a healthier place, because you know that you're going to recover. It's like a forgone conclusion to you. I need to have that mindset. Instead of "if" I reboot, it should be "when" I reboot. I gotta start seeing these withdrawals as tools to help me become a better person. They make me tougher as a person, if nothing else.