johnny12345
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Well here we go again. Another post, another promise, another fresh start. I realise that continuous posting, and a heavy reliance on counters is simply not good for one's mental health. Doing it gives you such a black and white approach to quitting porn and masturbating, when the reality is, your mind is actually in shades of grey. I'll explain my situation to you guys and it would be really cool to hear some feedback and other tips and tricks to beat not only porn, but the reboot as a mental mind block.
I am a 21 year old student, and after years of awful sexual experiences in October 2015 I went all night with a girl, unable to achieve any kind of erection whatsoever. We did every single sex act under the sun, but because of anxiety, alcohol consumption, and preference for porn, nothing did it for me. The next morning, I woke up and looked online to see if any others had a similar problem. Incredibly I found a huge response, and the wonderful 'Your Brain On Porn' forum website. I lost my virginity when I was 18 years old, and I was using viagra. I had created such a psychological mind block that I wouldn't be able to achieve a suitable erection for the girl I was with. The other weird and unique thing about my situation, is that I'm a really confident chap. I've never had any problem with getting chicks into bed whatsoever. However, after years and years of conditioning my brain to pixels, sex just didn't cut it for me. From an extremely young age I was conditioning myself to pixels, and not proper sex. In short, I've been masturbating since I was about 5 (crazy I know).
Now don't get me wrong, I can really easily masturbate without porn, and can easily receive something like a blowjob and get hard easily. It's just I've never really been in a sober sex situation, so I've conditioned my brain to failing at penetration whilst drunk. Honestly the thought of penetrative strikes fear into my heart! Every single girl I've ever had in my bed has just been restricted to giving me a blowjob, because I'm so psychologically scarred from failing to have proper sex.
As I've been attempting to reboot for years, it's obvious that my success has been limited. But I have not had penetrative sex since late 2014... My relapse today ended a streak that I started January 1st. The problem is momentum. It's very easy, post wank to feel greatly empowered, and feel confident that you can give up PMO. But 20 days in, it is sooo easy to start edging first to sensation alone, then watching a bit of porn here and there but not actually orgasming, perhaps you've seen a sexy instagram post or been swiping on tinder and the discussion has turned sexual.
My proposition is this. For the first time in years to go COMPLETELY COLD TURKEY. No Porn, No Masturbation, No Orgasm for 90 days. After this, I'll start tinder again and try and pick up chicks, which I always enjoyed doing! But until then, absolutely nothing, no edging, no telling myself that a cheeky edge without porn is fine. Absolutely zilch. I am going to say goodbye to my penis for three months. He will become a hermit. Only then will I be psychologically comfortable with entering the sex arena again, with the comforting thought that I have actually managed a clean 3 months. I'm also going to start being even more healthy. Aim to run x2 a week as opposed to the usual x1. I'm also going to start meditating, reading and carrying on with my yoga. I'm going to re-read the wonderful pdf 'Your Brain On Porn' eBook which I highly recommend to anyone trying to quit and change their lives. Another great tip that was actually working well, was I was giving my mobile/laptop to my parents every night from 8pm onwards and just reading before bed. I'm reading 'Mindfulness' books to just give me a greater appreciation on life.
I will try to post every day but if I feel like I cannot put the time and effort into an update then I won't, and I will catch up another time, as I want my posts to be therapeutic in themselves. So nothing rushed!
Peace and Love to everyone who took the time out of their busy lives to read my ramblings. I hope you'll find some more time to post, and wish me luck!
Day 1 - Completed - 20.02.17 - Easy day today. Obviously I was full of vim and vigour! Always nice to start the 90 day challenge. However, I've said the same thing for years. Let's hope that this time is different.
I am a 21 year old student, and after years of awful sexual experiences in October 2015 I went all night with a girl, unable to achieve any kind of erection whatsoever. We did every single sex act under the sun, but because of anxiety, alcohol consumption, and preference for porn, nothing did it for me. The next morning, I woke up and looked online to see if any others had a similar problem. Incredibly I found a huge response, and the wonderful 'Your Brain On Porn' forum website. I lost my virginity when I was 18 years old, and I was using viagra. I had created such a psychological mind block that I wouldn't be able to achieve a suitable erection for the girl I was with. The other weird and unique thing about my situation, is that I'm a really confident chap. I've never had any problem with getting chicks into bed whatsoever. However, after years and years of conditioning my brain to pixels, sex just didn't cut it for me. From an extremely young age I was conditioning myself to pixels, and not proper sex. In short, I've been masturbating since I was about 5 (crazy I know).
Now don't get me wrong, I can really easily masturbate without porn, and can easily receive something like a blowjob and get hard easily. It's just I've never really been in a sober sex situation, so I've conditioned my brain to failing at penetration whilst drunk. Honestly the thought of penetrative strikes fear into my heart! Every single girl I've ever had in my bed has just been restricted to giving me a blowjob, because I'm so psychologically scarred from failing to have proper sex.
As I've been attempting to reboot for years, it's obvious that my success has been limited. But I have not had penetrative sex since late 2014... My relapse today ended a streak that I started January 1st. The problem is momentum. It's very easy, post wank to feel greatly empowered, and feel confident that you can give up PMO. But 20 days in, it is sooo easy to start edging first to sensation alone, then watching a bit of porn here and there but not actually orgasming, perhaps you've seen a sexy instagram post or been swiping on tinder and the discussion has turned sexual.
My proposition is this. For the first time in years to go COMPLETELY COLD TURKEY. No Porn, No Masturbation, No Orgasm for 90 days. After this, I'll start tinder again and try and pick up chicks, which I always enjoyed doing! But until then, absolutely nothing, no edging, no telling myself that a cheeky edge without porn is fine. Absolutely zilch. I am going to say goodbye to my penis for three months. He will become a hermit. Only then will I be psychologically comfortable with entering the sex arena again, with the comforting thought that I have actually managed a clean 3 months. I'm also going to start being even more healthy. Aim to run x2 a week as opposed to the usual x1. I'm also going to start meditating, reading and carrying on with my yoga. I'm going to re-read the wonderful pdf 'Your Brain On Porn' eBook which I highly recommend to anyone trying to quit and change their lives. Another great tip that was actually working well, was I was giving my mobile/laptop to my parents every night from 8pm onwards and just reading before bed. I'm reading 'Mindfulness' books to just give me a greater appreciation on life.
I will try to post every day but if I feel like I cannot put the time and effort into an update then I won't, and I will catch up another time, as I want my posts to be therapeutic in themselves. So nothing rushed!
Peace and Love to everyone who took the time out of their busy lives to read my ramblings. I hope you'll find some more time to post, and wish me luck!
Day 1 - Completed - 20.02.17 - Easy day today. Obviously I was full of vim and vigour! Always nice to start the 90 day challenge. However, I've said the same thing for years. Let's hope that this time is different.