Dona,
I concur with William and Vispren.
And there might be many more behaviours that give you the dopamine kick.
You know them. I am sure you know them. And you most certainly be hesitant to acknowledge them. But just think about what do you do when:
- you get out on a busy street and an eye-catching woman crosses your path, how do you react?
- you spot information or some news on the Internet that you want to open - what is the link/news/information about?
In fact, any time you do anything even vaguely connected with women/their appearances/images/fetishes you will feel this arousal, this "feel good" kick. An insatiable one - a one that leaves you wanting more.
This is addiction.
You need to cut that out.
As William wrote in this thread (some post earlier) apparently after some time of sincere rebooting (1) cravings for dopamine kicks decrease, (2) what was intensively triggering (and you know exactly what it is) stops being that triggering.
So there is hope. But this is a really difficult addiction and will do its best to make you think that you are doing all you can when you are not.
I concur with William and Vispren.
And there might be many more behaviours that give you the dopamine kick.
You know them. I am sure you know them. And you most certainly be hesitant to acknowledge them. But just think about what do you do when:
- you get out on a busy street and an eye-catching woman crosses your path, how do you react?
- you spot information or some news on the Internet that you want to open - what is the link/news/information about?
In fact, any time you do anything even vaguely connected with women/their appearances/images/fetishes you will feel this arousal, this "feel good" kick. An insatiable one - a one that leaves you wanting more.
This is addiction.
You need to cut that out.
As William wrote in this thread (some post earlier) apparently after some time of sincere rebooting (1) cravings for dopamine kicks decrease, (2) what was intensively triggering (and you know exactly what it is) stops being that triggering.
So there is hope. But this is a really difficult addiction and will do its best to make you think that you are doing all you can when you are not.