Thanks Escape, Ajinkya & Yogi.
Day 6 today. Feeling much the same as yesterday. Energy & mood is low and I accept this will likely be the case for most of the next three or so weeks. Thankfully I seem to be recovered enough from whatever cold/flu thing I had to resume the martial arts I started the week before, which I did yesterday. The routine & the physicality will hopefully bring stability, focus and counterbalance the sometimes depressive, empty feelings of withdrawal.
I intend to focus on that, the Youtube channel, spending time with friends & family, enjoying activities on my fail safe list and getting things done around the place. I am also reading through my focus list daily as well the euphoric recall one to remind myself that I am doing this and why. Simple, straightforward.
It's unwise to get too confident at such an early stage but I feel like I have things relatively under control at this point.The change of focus to urge management and habit change seems to be a positive one. As a result I seem to be handling urges & intrusive thoughts well enough, and I have indeed been getting them. The only issue is the tendency for fantasy to creep in during the period where I am waking up but not fully awake. Once I am more conscious, I seem to be able to recognise it, relax & breathe my way through it when it happens.
Day 6 today. Feeling much the same as yesterday. Energy & mood is low and I accept this will likely be the case for most of the next three or so weeks. Thankfully I seem to be recovered enough from whatever cold/flu thing I had to resume the martial arts I started the week before, which I did yesterday. The routine & the physicality will hopefully bring stability, focus and counterbalance the sometimes depressive, empty feelings of withdrawal.
I intend to focus on that, the Youtube channel, spending time with friends & family, enjoying activities on my fail safe list and getting things done around the place. I am also reading through my focus list daily as well the euphoric recall one to remind myself that I am doing this and why. Simple, straightforward.
It's unwise to get too confident at such an early stage but I feel like I have things relatively under control at this point.The change of focus to urge management and habit change seems to be a positive one. As a result I seem to be handling urges & intrusive thoughts well enough, and I have indeed been getting them. The only issue is the tendency for fantasy to creep in during the period where I am waking up but not fully awake. Once I am more conscious, I seem to be able to recognise it, relax & breathe my way through it when it happens.