Quickly posting today just for a check in. I have meaning to earlier sooner but I have been struggling to think of anything to say or report. I am finding that the continuing lock down in my city (longest in the world as of this month apparently) plus trying to avoid the dangers presented by many giving up on it at a particularly bad time has left me extremely isolated. Apart from two visits to see my father, I haven't had any in person contact with another human being since September. By the looks of things, this isn't going to get any better for some time.
I have been keeping myself occupied with all the usual activities i.e exercise, music, solitary walks, phone chats and all but I am finding it difficult. Nothing that can be done at this stage but I had to at least get it off my chest somewhere to someone.
I believe after my last post, I did PMO once and two days later I caught myself looking at P. I stopped and didn't peek again but did eventually MO to sensation shortly after. My erection was sluggish, taking minutes but once I did, was much harder than I have been when PMOing in a while.
None of this is ideal or healthy at this point though. I have been clean since though and have ramped up both my meditation time as well resuming the daily exercise. The purpose & clarity both brings have been helpful this week.
Also I haven't used the dating apps in awhile but am still talking over the phone to two of the women I met in September.
Hope you are all well.
I have been keeping myself occupied with all the usual activities i.e exercise, music, solitary walks, phone chats and all but I am finding it difficult. Nothing that can be done at this stage but I had to at least get it off my chest somewhere to someone.
I believe after my last post, I did PMO once and two days later I caught myself looking at P. I stopped and didn't peek again but did eventually MO to sensation shortly after. My erection was sluggish, taking minutes but once I did, was much harder than I have been when PMOing in a while.
None of this is ideal or healthy at this point though. I have been clean since though and have ramped up both my meditation time as well resuming the daily exercise. The purpose & clarity both brings have been helpful this week.
Also I haven't used the dating apps in awhile but am still talking over the phone to two of the women I met in September.
Hope you are all well.