Does anyone know whats happening @ ybr?
- Thread starter Billy B
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Thanks for the response, Offaxis.
And hey, 40! How you doin'?,
I've missed you guys. If you run into any of the other fellas on here could you let 'em know I'm about, please? And that I'm doin' okay?
I'm still clean. Though my suicidal thoughts and inclinations snowballed to the point where I couldn't be sure to keep myself safe. My friend took me to the hospital and now I'm in a Intermediary Care Centre. Not quite the nut-house, but... !
I'll take this opp to reset and get some further strategies in place to keep myself well.
I hope you is goodgood.
And hey, 40! How you doin'?,
I've missed you guys. If you run into any of the other fellas on here could you let 'em know I'm about, please? And that I'm doin' okay?
I'm still clean. Though my suicidal thoughts and inclinations snowballed to the point where I couldn't be sure to keep myself safe. My friend took me to the hospital and now I'm in a Intermediary Care Centre. Not quite the nut-house, but... !
I'll take this opp to reset and get some further strategies in place to keep myself well.
I hope you is goodgood.
Hi guys
Still no news on YBR I see. I have had a terrible March and now things seem to get better.
Hope you're doing better already Billy B. I have crazy thoughts, that's how I call them, too. It's the addiction making you feel miserable and looking for a way to hit you when you're down.
What is a great eye opener is the Allen Carr Easyway to quit smoking method. He talks about a little monster, which is the same for P-addiction. There's many good clips on YouTube.
Take care y'all.
Still no news on YBR I see. I have had a terrible March and now things seem to get better.
Hope you're doing better already Billy B. I have crazy thoughts, that's how I call them, too. It's the addiction making you feel miserable and looking for a way to hit you when you're down.
What is a great eye opener is the Allen Carr Easyway to quit smoking method. He talks about a little monster, which is the same for P-addiction. There's many good clips on YouTube.
Take care y'all.
Great to hear from ya, Rengaw.
Sorry to hear you had a rough month, too, but glad yr feelin' a bit better. I'm okay, still clean and thats to be thankful for.
Regarding Alan Carr, I love his attitude. I haven't managed to integrate it with smoking but never had more than a passing doubt about the value of pmo. That's not what fucked me but the emotions I'd been sqashing with it. Without the pmo my default coping mechanism (depression) kicked in: Equally unsustainable. Now I'm slowly learning to feel what needs to be felt. Recovery will likely be a long, long process for me but, despite feeling as though I'm beaten off and on, I remain hopeful that I can learn to manage this much more effectively.
If YBR isn't back on once I'm home (and have my computer) I'll start journalling here, I reckon. I've still alot to learn as well as some experience to share.
We keep on Truckin'.
Sorry to hear you had a rough month, too, but glad yr feelin' a bit better. I'm okay, still clean and thats to be thankful for.
Regarding Alan Carr, I love his attitude. I haven't managed to integrate it with smoking but never had more than a passing doubt about the value of pmo. That's not what fucked me but the emotions I'd been sqashing with it. Without the pmo my default coping mechanism (depression) kicked in: Equally unsustainable. Now I'm slowly learning to feel what needs to be felt. Recovery will likely be a long, long process for me but, despite feeling as though I'm beaten off and on, I remain hopeful that I can learn to manage this much more effectively.
If YBR isn't back on once I'm home (and have my computer) I'll start journalling here, I reckon. I've still alot to learn as well as some experience to share.
We keep on Truckin'.
Wabi-sabi
Member
I don't know what's happening over there currently, but I do recall YBR having a bandwidth problem in the past that the site would shut down when they'd had a certain amount of traffic that month. I guess I guess it's a server issue, or else they should pay more for hosting!
Like others here, I am a long-time YBR user. I visit here from time to time, but after a while I miss the batshit craziness of YBR.
Like others here, I am a long-time YBR user. I visit here from time to time, but after a while I miss the batshit craziness of YBR.
MarstonS
Member
Hey guys! Good to see some familiar faces here 
Yeah Billy, I 'm one of those nail bitin fellows who just needs to journal.....as a mather of fact I relapsed yesterday at day 55. Ofcourse I will not blame it on the forum beeing down, staying clean is my own responsibily. I had a super bad week and the depression just got the better of me. Anyways, miss my old journal and hope the board will be up soon. Hope you guys are doing well!
-MarstonS, from YBR-
Yeah Billy, I 'm one of those nail bitin fellows who just needs to journal.....as a mather of fact I relapsed yesterday at day 55. Ofcourse I will not blame it on the forum beeing down, staying clean is my own responsibily. I had a super bad week and the depression just got the better of me. Anyways, miss my old journal and hope the board will be up soon. Hope you guys are doing well! -MarstonS, from YBR-
LifeRegrets
Member
Hope it comes back online. If it wasn't for that site I wouldn't have even known what PIED was.
MarstonS said:Hey guys! Good to see some familiar faces here
-MarstonS, from YBR-
MarstonS!
Sorry to hear you havin' a rough trot, Cobber. I trust you found out that using was not the solution? And that yr re-inspired to step-off on another clean-streak?
Will you set up a journal here? If not, I wonder if journalling in a Word-doc may be helpful in the interim? I will set up here if YBR is not back up by the 10th (thats when I get out of the nut-house and will be at home with my computer).
One day at a time.
MarstonS
Member
Hey Billy,
Yes I started a journal over here. Does not look good over at the YBR. It's been down a long time now. If I were the underdog (the creator of YBR forum) and I, for some reason, could not get it fixed I'd sure as hell check this forum and inform everyone what is going on. He is very well avare that this forum excists. Since he has not done that that makes me worry something has happened to him. Either that or he has becom tired of managing a forum and decided to just shut it down with out informing anyone about it, which in my eyes would be very irresponsible. Neither of these options are good so I hope I'm wrong.
Does anyone reading this know whats going on? Anyone know the underdog personally that could send him an e-mail or something?
Yes I started a journal over here. Does not look good over at the YBR. It's been down a long time now. If I were the underdog (the creator of YBR forum) and I, for some reason, could not get it fixed I'd sure as hell check this forum and inform everyone what is going on. He is very well avare that this forum excists. Since he has not done that that makes me worry something has happened to him. Either that or he has becom tired of managing a forum and decided to just shut it down with out informing anyone about it, which in my eyes would be very irresponsible. Neither of these options are good so I hope I'm wrong.
Does anyone reading this know whats going on? Anyone know the underdog personally that could send him an e-mail or something?
MarstonS said:
I've had some contact with Gary Wilson. I thought he might know something because YBR was, I thought, originally (very loosely) affiliated with YBOP. Unfortunately he was unable to help: tol' me he has had no communication with the Underdog for a couple of years, that UD never revealed his identity to Gary and Gary has never had an email address (I assume they only communicated through the websites).
I too, hope that UD is okay. It seems strange that he would end things without notice or, as you say, at least come here and explain if some unresolvable technical issue has stymied his ability to keep the site active.
All of that anecdotal data, MOUNTAINS of it, apparently lost to the ether! And our personal stories... its a cryin' shame.
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vegvisir
Guest
Hey fellas. Billy B! Sounds like a rough time mate, hopefully ybr comes back up soon and we can get to logging. If not I'll shoot you a message in the next few days
vegvisir said:
Cheers, man. Good to hear from ya. I have been doing much better with the support and resources, with the rest I can have at the Centre, here. Had a bit of a turn today but... now that I'm off the pot as well as the pmo, it's time to work on ways to process emotion effectively... in healthy ways.
I hope you're doin' well yrself, mate?
Rengaw said:
Onya, Rengaw, ta mate and yes: it's been very useful to be here. They send me home on the 10th which will be a whole different challenge but I will have continued support and feel hopeful that I can get back to managing my mental health more efficiently once again.
I've temporarily lost count of how many days I've been free of pmo but I must be pushin' 180, which is pretty good. No desire to ever go back into that dark hole. Nearly two weeks off the pot now and feel good about that, excited to see how I feel in 3-6 months (the time it can take to rebalance from it). As mentioned, I now have the challenge, but more importantly the opportunity, to learn healthy ways of coping, of processing emotion.
I will get more active on here once I'm home with my computer (I find it cumbersome working via my phone).
I hope you're doin' well?
ResilientWolf
Member
Hey everyone, I thought I'm jump on too, i came from YBR has anyone heard any update on the site?