Great to hear from ya, Rengaw.
Sorry to hear you had a rough month, too, but glad yr feelin' a bit better. I'm okay, still clean and thats to be thankful for.
Regarding Alan Carr, I love his attitude. I haven't managed to integrate it with smoking but never had more than a passing doubt about the value of pmo. That's not what fucked me but the emotions I'd been sqashing with it. Without the pmo my default coping mechanism (depression) kicked in: Equally unsustainable. Now I'm slowly learning to feel what needs to be felt. Recovery will likely be a long, long process for me but, despite feeling as though I'm beaten off and on, I remain hopeful that I can learn to manage this much more effectively.
If YBR isn't back on once I'm home (and have my computer) I'll start journalling here, I reckon. I've still alot to learn as well as some experience to share.
We keep on Truckin'.