I was keeping a physical journal but I stumbled across this forum indirectly through the NoFap Reddit and figured it might be even better to have some added accountability along with the benefits that come along with keeping a journal. Considering I slipped up today after abstaining from PMO for a week, I also figured that this was as a good a time as any to start.
With that having been said, I'm not sure where to start. I've been at this habit for way longer than I care to think about (but to put a number on it, it's been over 10 years now). I've tried what feels like a million different tips and tricks to try to quit, and all have come up short. But I keep trying new tactics and techniques because I feel like I'll only ever really be defeated by this horrible habit when I stop trying to beat it.
Anyways, it's late here now and I'm not sure what else to write at this moment, but I'll try to share some more details in my upcoming entries. For now, here's my status update:
Did I use porn today? - Unfortunately, yes.
What were my triggers? - Today I honestly think part of it was the mental and physical fatigue I'm feeling from dieting down and cutting water for an upcoming event, although I could definitely feel the urge to PMO developing over the past couple days, likely just because it was getting closer to a week, which is right around when I usually start to feel the urges get stronger.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? - Unfortunately again, today I soothed my anxiety/stress with PMO.
What am I grateful for today? - Today I'm grateful that I found this forum so that I can journal and hopefully have an added measure of accountability, and I'm also grateful that I got to spend some time with some friends.
Day counter! - Day 0 and counting!
With that having been said, I'm not sure where to start. I've been at this habit for way longer than I care to think about (but to put a number on it, it's been over 10 years now). I've tried what feels like a million different tips and tricks to try to quit, and all have come up short. But I keep trying new tactics and techniques because I feel like I'll only ever really be defeated by this horrible habit when I stop trying to beat it.
Anyways, it's late here now and I'm not sure what else to write at this moment, but I'll try to share some more details in my upcoming entries. For now, here's my status update:
Did I use porn today? - Unfortunately, yes.
What were my triggers? - Today I honestly think part of it was the mental and physical fatigue I'm feeling from dieting down and cutting water for an upcoming event, although I could definitely feel the urge to PMO developing over the past couple days, likely just because it was getting closer to a week, which is right around when I usually start to feel the urges get stronger.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? - Unfortunately again, today I soothed my anxiety/stress with PMO.
What am I grateful for today? - Today I'm grateful that I found this forum so that I can journal and hopefully have an added measure of accountability, and I'm also grateful that I got to spend some time with some friends.
Day counter! - Day 0 and counting!