thestuckintellectual
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Hi all,
This is the second time I am starting a Journal. Last time I did was 2 years before. Now I am married for the last 8 months.
Yes and it happened. I couldn't get it hard in bed. I experienced the bitter truth of Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction. The fun fact (sarcastically) is that I has all the information regarding the "Brain on Porn" for the last 2 years, but still couldn't quit it, because I never thought that it will be so seriously affecting my life.
Now just to give an idea about me, I am going to explain this. I started Masturbation when I was around 13 or 14 years old. Now I am 29. 15 years of my life. And that too in prone position. (Google it, if y'all dont know). It fucked up my penis sensations. And as if it was not enough, I have a short frenulum condition (frenulum breve),also a semi-Phimosis (my skin doesnt retract over the tip when I am hard) with an uncircumcised penis. Now you all must have got an idea of how fucked up my condition is.
Since I was on prone masturbation in the starting days after marriage what I did was I grinded my wife and I ejaculated (not inside). So my wife thought there was no problem with my penis getting an erection with her (But in my mind, I knew it was due to prone masturbation, and that I could get it done with an empty bed). But later when I got an erection by grinding and I was getting ready to penetrate, the erection died out. So she began to understand that there was something wrong with me. I has seen the fear in my wife's eyes.
So in order to get a succesful sexual life with my wife, I tried to start a streak of NoFap. But I relapsed several times and I binged many times. So I got a little worried that this may eventually break my marriage life. I talked with my wife about this condition that I have and told her that I am on my way to get rid of this. The intermediate flatlines of no sexual drive was so frustrating for me and wife.
Since I couldn't get a hard on, I approached doctor. He said it was a very common condition among newly married. So he prescribed me Caverta 25 mg tablets (A generic Viagra). I tested it. I tried to grind with my wife in bed to get an erection and I got one and Yup, the tablet sustained the erection. But my wife was a little bit tensed that time. So we couldnt do it. But now I felt a little bit comforted since I have an escape route. But to start the erection I still need to grind or look at porn, and I know deep inside, that its not the way to do it.
This is me now. Just started writing this after 3 hours of youtube bingewatching and masturbating 2 times to hardcore porn.
So help me out guys. I am starting afresh to beat this for once and for all. I will keep posting.
This is the second time I am starting a Journal. Last time I did was 2 years before. Now I am married for the last 8 months.
Yes and it happened. I couldn't get it hard in bed. I experienced the bitter truth of Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction. The fun fact (sarcastically) is that I has all the information regarding the "Brain on Porn" for the last 2 years, but still couldn't quit it, because I never thought that it will be so seriously affecting my life.
Now just to give an idea about me, I am going to explain this. I started Masturbation when I was around 13 or 14 years old. Now I am 29. 15 years of my life. And that too in prone position. (Google it, if y'all dont know). It fucked up my penis sensations. And as if it was not enough, I have a short frenulum condition (frenulum breve),also a semi-Phimosis (my skin doesnt retract over the tip when I am hard) with an uncircumcised penis. Now you all must have got an idea of how fucked up my condition is.
Since I was on prone masturbation in the starting days after marriage what I did was I grinded my wife and I ejaculated (not inside). So my wife thought there was no problem with my penis getting an erection with her (But in my mind, I knew it was due to prone masturbation, and that I could get it done with an empty bed). But later when I got an erection by grinding and I was getting ready to penetrate, the erection died out. So she began to understand that there was something wrong with me. I has seen the fear in my wife's eyes.
So in order to get a succesful sexual life with my wife, I tried to start a streak of NoFap. But I relapsed several times and I binged many times. So I got a little worried that this may eventually break my marriage life. I talked with my wife about this condition that I have and told her that I am on my way to get rid of this. The intermediate flatlines of no sexual drive was so frustrating for me and wife.
Since I couldn't get a hard on, I approached doctor. He said it was a very common condition among newly married. So he prescribed me Caverta 25 mg tablets (A generic Viagra). I tested it. I tried to grind with my wife in bed to get an erection and I got one and Yup, the tablet sustained the erection. But my wife was a little bit tensed that time. So we couldnt do it. But now I felt a little bit comforted since I have an escape route. But to start the erection I still need to grind or look at porn, and I know deep inside, that its not the way to do it.
This is me now. Just started writing this after 3 hours of youtube bingewatching and masturbating 2 times to hardcore porn.
So help me out guys. I am starting afresh to beat this for once and for all. I will keep posting.