Hi!
So I am on day 95 of no porn no masturbation. I have tons of energy, look much better and feel better. Memory and focus have improved and I feel more confident and sociable.
But I have some conerns and some questions.
I think I started no PMO in a flatline and I am definetly still in it. Although I crave women and lust for them, when I see a hot one, I don't think I had one boner the whole time from looking at them or socializeing with them. I dont really get boners during the day at all but I preety much had 100% MW the whole 95 days. They dont last long lately but I had some strong ones in the high phases. I watched some 15 min Nina Hartley instruction video on Cunnilingus(wasnt bingeing just preparing for some better times
), first pornographic video in 95 days. I was prepared for a brobdingnagian boner so I promissed myself I wouldnt touch my junk but I didnt even have a semi. But my brain felt hardcore aroused. I was only wired to porn before and never really too women at least not since puberty. So at 31 I am prepared for a long flatline. Does this mean that currently I am not wired to anything? My brain is in a limbo now and heeling itself? Will I get a lot of spontanious boners when this is over? Should I try to get boners from my own touch only? I dont think that this is possible at the moment anyway as I dont feel any reaction when I touch my penis. Oh the deadness!
So I am thinking about buying a pump to give it some exercise(if u dont use it u loose it) and to masturbate again when I get more daytime erections. No porn of course and only once every 2 weeks. Maybe with a fleshlight? Or should I just let it lay dead for another six months for more brainhealing? This is so frustrating as I have such an urge to fuck but virtually no dick to fuck with.
thanks
So I am on day 95 of no porn no masturbation. I have tons of energy, look much better and feel better. Memory and focus have improved and I feel more confident and sociable.
But I have some conerns and some questions.
I think I started no PMO in a flatline and I am definetly still in it. Although I crave women and lust for them, when I see a hot one, I don't think I had one boner the whole time from looking at them or socializeing with them. I dont really get boners during the day at all but I preety much had 100% MW the whole 95 days. They dont last long lately but I had some strong ones in the high phases. I watched some 15 min Nina Hartley instruction video on Cunnilingus(wasnt bingeing just preparing for some better times
), first pornographic video in 95 days. I was prepared for a brobdingnagian boner so I promissed myself I wouldnt touch my junk but I didnt even have a semi. But my brain felt hardcore aroused. I was only wired to porn before and never really too women at least not since puberty. So at 31 I am prepared for a long flatline. Does this mean that currently I am not wired to anything? My brain is in a limbo now and heeling itself? Will I get a lot of spontanious boners when this is over? Should I try to get boners from my own touch only? I dont think that this is possible at the moment anyway as I dont feel any reaction when I touch my penis. Oh the deadness!So I am thinking about buying a pump to give it some exercise(if u dont use it u loose it) and to masturbate again when I get more daytime erections. No porn of course and only once every 2 weeks. Maybe with a fleshlight? Or should I just let it lay dead for another six months for more brainhealing? This is so frustrating as I have such an urge to fuck but virtually no dick to fuck with.
thanks
