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jpv21
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Hi Guys,
Let me introduce myself. My name is Pieter. In the last 1-2 year(s), it has become more and more clear to me that I have a (severe?) porn addiction. Or, well, not just porn. Also sex-chatting: Chatting about sex-dates.
I'm 26 years old, mostly unexperienced with sex, and never had a relationship. That is partly because I'm gay, and only out of the closet for 3 years. But still, I'm more and more realising that this porn/sex-chatting addiction could be the main cause.
I've had a profile at rebootnation before. I tried to stop with Porn before. But never got further than about 14 days without PMO. I guess I needed a wake-up call. A real source of motivation.
Over the last year, I escalated from watching porn to sex-chatting. This is more 'satisfying' than porn as I'm chatting with real people, so I guess it was just another form of escalating to more extreme versions of 'digital satisfaction'. I think I've been fapping to porn for over 10 years. When it became an addiction is hard to say, but for sure many years ago.
It's clear to me now that I show many signs of porn addiction: Not being able to stop, escalation of porn tastes, brain fog, etc. It also feels like my 'sexual battery' is completely drained. Still, I kept on watching porn until PMO over and over again.
I think today I got a proper wake-up call. This evening, I had a date. A 'sex-date' with someone I was sex-chatting with. And, this, 'real deal' was not by far as exciting as the fantasies and porn videos. I felt nothing. No boner. Complete ED. No horniness, no 'sexy feeling', nothing. Reading the newspaper would have been as exciting as this date. And well, he was not ugly. So. I have a problem. If I didn't know about Porn Addiction, I would be seriously confused about my sexuality right now.
So, it is time to stop. Stop watching porn. Stop with sex-chatting. Stop fapping. It's the only way out. I really feel like if I ever want a relationship, I need to get over this addiction.
So, today is the first day of my reboot. I'm aiming at 90 days without porn and sex-chatting. Perhaps I'll allow myself to have sex before that if I meet a nice guy, e.g. after 30 days. But for sure no porn & sex-chatting before I completed the 90 days nofap.
As best my time allows it, I'll keep track here of how it is going, and how I feel.
My last PMO was yesterday, so today is day 1.
Day 1:
Mood: 6/10
Energy: 6/10
Cravings: 1/10
Cheers,
Pieter
Let me introduce myself. My name is Pieter. In the last 1-2 year(s), it has become more and more clear to me that I have a (severe?) porn addiction. Or, well, not just porn. Also sex-chatting: Chatting about sex-dates.
I'm 26 years old, mostly unexperienced with sex, and never had a relationship. That is partly because I'm gay, and only out of the closet for 3 years. But still, I'm more and more realising that this porn/sex-chatting addiction could be the main cause.
I've had a profile at rebootnation before. I tried to stop with Porn before. But never got further than about 14 days without PMO. I guess I needed a wake-up call. A real source of motivation.
Over the last year, I escalated from watching porn to sex-chatting. This is more 'satisfying' than porn as I'm chatting with real people, so I guess it was just another form of escalating to more extreme versions of 'digital satisfaction'. I think I've been fapping to porn for over 10 years. When it became an addiction is hard to say, but for sure many years ago.
It's clear to me now that I show many signs of porn addiction: Not being able to stop, escalation of porn tastes, brain fog, etc. It also feels like my 'sexual battery' is completely drained. Still, I kept on watching porn until PMO over and over again.
I think today I got a proper wake-up call. This evening, I had a date. A 'sex-date' with someone I was sex-chatting with. And, this, 'real deal' was not by far as exciting as the fantasies and porn videos. I felt nothing. No boner. Complete ED. No horniness, no 'sexy feeling', nothing. Reading the newspaper would have been as exciting as this date. And well, he was not ugly. So. I have a problem. If I didn't know about Porn Addiction, I would be seriously confused about my sexuality right now.
So, it is time to stop. Stop watching porn. Stop with sex-chatting. Stop fapping. It's the only way out. I really feel like if I ever want a relationship, I need to get over this addiction.
So, today is the first day of my reboot. I'm aiming at 90 days without porn and sex-chatting. Perhaps I'll allow myself to have sex before that if I meet a nice guy, e.g. after 30 days. But for sure no porn & sex-chatting before I completed the 90 days nofap.
As best my time allows it, I'll keep track here of how it is going, and how I feel.
My last PMO was yesterday, so today is day 1.
Day 1:
Mood: 6/10
Energy: 6/10
Cravings: 1/10
Cheers,
Pieter