Last night was Day 21 clean I had a long day yesterday and fell asleep
To explain my day I had a massive victory, I live about an hour from Toronto Canada(a really world class city) Over the years I would take the car with my bicycle in the trunk and ride the waterfront trails and paths So much to see and do food trucks live music and artists beaches everything you can think of. I have not had a chance to do this in 4 years due to of course covid some very busy years of work professionally etc. This trip also included a 10 minute ferry ride out to the Island, More of the same gardens trails fountains beaches..... and of course Hanlon's Point clothing optional beach. I always had my wife's blessing on this as she knew I was a nudist before we were married (she has no interest and I never pushed her to try it) In the past years I think I could place a link between the nude beach and my addiction. For the last 7 years I knew I was an outright porn addict and have tried to separate the nude beach experience with my porn addiction, with little success of course and a few times found myself either heading for a "massage" or heading home for a "session" which would usually run a few hours. Yesterday neither of those activities took place. A welcome change. After the beach I wandered through some old sections of downtown Toronto. Old Market areas shops restaurants and so on. Got ice cream took in the sounds and sites. Truly spent the day how I really wanted to spend it. On a last note of course there was no shortage of ladies doing their shopping in a big city. My eyes still wander. Change is definitely possible given the time and effort and education
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that's a great post and i really think you should derive a lot of confidence in that. i know this is your journal not mine, but i think i personally could not handle a nude beach especially as i work on my own reboot. it would just give me way too much firewood for fantasies and outright tempting me to relapse and act out.
as far as ladies out and about i think there's no way to help that i think we are wired to enjoy the sight of an attractive lady. so my interpretation is eyes wandering ok, but objectifying and leading to fantasies with other women esp in a committed relationship is a path not to go down.
nonetheless awesome day it sound like you had