quit for good
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joepanic
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Haven't been on to post much recently but things going extremely well I like who i am and also who I am becoming. It;s everyone else who needs to catch up to the new me. The me they all claimed they wanted me to be. It's true careful what you wish for. Hold someone to a higher standard they will probably hold you to the same once they get there
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joepanic
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It's been nice to be able to conduct my healing here without interferences challenges guilt trips or criticism from anyone else the last little while. It certainly has made it easier and less stressful. I think I have actually gone like 10 days not even thinking about porn. That is actually a major thing for me. A huge step forward. A new mindset I suppose
joepanic
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Another week gone by. It's interesting for me it's not so much as abstaining from porn that I was looking for. It is living the life I always wanted to live... doing the things I wanted to do. I am starting to see snippets of that. It's a bit of a learning experience about myself to see how much i don't actually know that i thought I did know. How I am not as good at doing certain things as i thought I was. It's almost like just starting out in life and learning new things but knowing that i should have been in this position 30 years ago. Now at age 52 I am so damned busy its hard to make that start. Hope it makes sense. It might be another 3 or 4 years before I get the free time I need but it is what it is
Leonidas
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Amazing revelation, that last post of yours. It's like a stare that pierces right through you, only it's your own eyes that are doing the piercing! I imagine you feel a little regretful for not having started those projects earlier... but at same time, isn't it something that you found out late rather than never? 