Any answers and reassurance would be hugely appreciated!

captaintravis

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Hi everyone a little history to understand... started PMO at about 10 maybe 12 and went to high speed internet porn very quickly doing it 4 - 5 times a day almost everyday and escalating to more depraved hardcore porn quite quickly too. I am now 25 and have always had trouble when it came to a real person the only times I was able to have sex was with long term girlfriends and it was never any good anyway would be able to get hard at first but almost always go soft or back to about 60% after penetration or I would ejaculate very quickly but I could always stay 100% from oral and last as long as I wanted... very strange.

So since I found all of this it has been 7 weeks of no PMO at all and no cravings at all either, only lots of sex and O with my partner, we got together when I found all this out... she is amazing and very supportive I have told and shown her all of this. Without getting to descriptive it took about 3 weeks of no PMO before I was able to even penetrate but when I finally could I would blow very fast or go soft... fast forward about 1 more week and I was able to get hard very easily around her from pleasing her or receiving oral and then penetrate, but if I didn't rush the penetration I would lose my erection and when I did penetrate I would still go soft after about 1 minute even though I was super turned on, then I would get hard again and go soft again then hard again and blow... very strange. Fast forward another 2 weeks and we had the best sex we have had so far. During the day I had ejaculated maybe 2 times from sex and oral and we went out then came back home and I lasted for a good 15 minutes fully hard and didn't ejaculate it felt amazing the whole time but went soft again after the 15 minutes very frustrating but excellent progress none the less. Then last night being the 7th week of no PMO... we haven't seen each other since the time I lasted the longest I was able to get hard after giving her oral and penetrate her, but blew very quickly. The erection didn't feel "right" I guess and I struggled to get hard again the rest of the night only could get to about 70% penetrate again and it would go full soft and back to 70% then back to soft vice versa to the point where I couldn't get hard again at all and we just stopped and slept... keep in mind she is supportive and we talk about it and she always reassures me that we will get there and that she is sticking by me... amazing woman!

Also something else I've noticed that if I don't get constant stimulation or don't try to penetrate quickly I lose my erection very quickly and the only way I get hard is from kissing or giving and receiving oral. I remember being able to just look at a woman when I was much younger (still hadn't had any sexual encounters) and get rock hard just by looking! So I hope that comes back too by just being naked near her...

Things were improving greatly but since last night I've felt down because it felt like a huge step back and I haven't PMO or even MO in the 7 weeks only O with my partner so I don't know whats happening... anyone else had anything similar to this or can anyone give any advice or feedback on what to do next? Maybe even just some reassurance from someone with a similar situation that has come out the other side winning and fucking like they should be able to???
 
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