Thanks, at least I was able to talk with her. I just want to withdraw and escape, but that’s a big part of my problem, a survival mechanism from childhood that is no longer helpful.
There is nothing wrong with you. You got addicted to something highly addictive. We're the ones here trying to stop the addiction. There a millions of people out there addicted that aren't trying to get better. Porn was made to make you want more. To make you keep coming back. To make you feel like you can't stop. There is nothing wrong with you. You are working towards your freedom. There is everything right about that.What’s wrong with me? That’s the question my wife asks me, and I ask myself. How could I do this? How could I do this to her? Our marriage? I know I have personality flaws and problems, but I’m not a cruel person. I didn’t used to be this way. I can only conclude that for me, porn is worse than everything I’ve read about it.
I watched a show in which a character had a traumatic brain injury. I feel kind of like that guy.