Day 9
Feeling grim today. I woke up around around 5.30 am and couldn't fall back asleep. I made some eggs for breakfast. Went to the gym with my gf.
I reached out to my psychotherapist because I need to share these things with someone.
Financial problems:
1. Full renovation of the floor of the house
2. My gf wants us to go to the seaside for a vacation
3. My gf wants to go to Spain which I do too but now is not the right moment
4. I have to buy a new car because I wouldn't be able to drive in the city center due to some bullshit low emission zone
5. I have an annual payment for a fund (stocks) I invested in
Obviously some of these things have to drop out. But as of right now, I can't do a single 1 let alone all of these things I mentioned.
I'm also worried about my young sister as I've mentioned before, my parents are splitting up and I don't want her to become a girl who is "difficult to be respected"
2 out of my 3 closer friends aren't that close to me right now and it's hard to imagine that it'd become better regarding those 2 friendships.
Well, I've got to stay strong!
