I relapsed. At work, in the toilet. Not proud.
It felt good for a few minutes, wasn't worth it. I'm sick of repeating the same things and pattern. I tried playing the video I had made, but no avail.
At some point it becomes tiring (to say the least) to think each time I have a streak I think to myself "I will no longer watch that stuff." And for it to happen so many damn times that I relapse. Not trying to be a moaner, just trying to think of something else to try/do in order to get out of this..
Thanks for reading!