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DIMA-NBA
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Day 3
Thank you so much guys! @achilles heel @GBS @Iwantthesecondchance @Scottie_B @Blondie
Yesterday I bought a pocket notebook which started a nice string of small wins. I find that taking notes on my phone has some downsides, such as getting distracted by notifications and by the time I open the notes app, I forget what I wanted to write down
. So having this pocket notebook feels great, I can open it at anytime, check to do lists and jot down some ideas. A step away from devices. Yesterday evening I felt powerful and capable, a good feeling! 
Thank you so much guys! @achilles heel @GBS @Iwantthesecondchance @Scottie_B @Blondie
Yesterday I bought a pocket notebook which started a nice string of small wins. I find that taking notes on my phone has some downsides, such as getting distracted by notifications and by the time I open the notes app, I forget what I wanted to write down
. So having this pocket notebook feels great, I can open it at anytime, check to do lists and jot down some ideas. A step away from devices. Yesterday evening I felt powerful and capable, a good feeling!
DIMA-NBA
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Day 2
I had an embarrassing moment a few days ago. Again, literally minutes after having sex, I had the urge to PMO. Perhaps because I didn't reach O during sex and some bullshit I tell myself about needing to finish, because when I don't finish my private parts hurt. I started M and while my gf was in the other room and she walked in and she caught me.
She left me alone, I finished and of course she was upset. She felt like I wasn't attracted to her, what was going to happen if she gained some weight during pregnancy she asked me, etc. I explained that there is no single woman that can compete with P. There is just so much variety in P, it's never-ending. I told her there is no problem on her side.
I made a custom AI reboot coach which I'm happy with. I basically put a lot of information for context and it definitely has been helpful. I did short 5 minutes meditation
last couple of days during my lunch break, in the park. That has been a good reset, along with the gratitude lists I made the past few days.
Have a good day and thanks for reading!
I had an embarrassing moment a few days ago. Again, literally minutes after having sex, I had the urge to PMO. Perhaps because I didn't reach O during sex and some bullshit I tell myself about needing to finish, because when I don't finish my private parts hurt. I started M and while my gf was in the other room and she walked in and she caught me.
She left me alone, I finished and of course she was upset. She felt like I wasn't attracted to her, what was going to happen if she gained some weight during pregnancy she asked me, etc. I explained that there is no single woman that can compete with P. There is just so much variety in P, it's never-ending. I told her there is no problem on her side.
I made a custom AI reboot coach which I'm happy with. I basically put a lot of information for context and it definitely has been helpful. I did short 5 minutes meditation
last couple of days during my lunch break, in the park. That has been a good reset, along with the gratitude lists I made the past few days. Have a good day and thanks for reading!
DIMA-NBA
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Day 1
Things have been "less than ideal" lately. I PMO-ed as I couldn't sleep last night. I overate too. Work related stress, basically I haven't been productive and that is a direct cause of the stress. It's a shame because the workplace in general is ok, I have support, onboarding seems ok, it's me, I'm the problem, can't really cope with shit, so I turn to my vices. I don't want to bore you with the details, so I will stop here.
Thanks for reading, hope tomorrow is a fresh start.
Things have been "less than ideal" lately. I PMO-ed as I couldn't sleep last night. I overate too. Work related stress, basically I haven't been productive and that is a direct cause of the stress. It's a shame because the workplace in general is ok, I have support, onboarding seems ok, it's me, I'm the problem, can't really cope with shit, so I turn to my vices. I don't want to bore you with the details, so I will stop here.
Thanks for reading, hope tomorrow is a fresh start.
DIMA-NBA
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I just PMO-ed at work. I really wanted to escape. After I did it, it didn't feel like such an escape anyway. Hopefully I get better at dealing with stress and also dismantling it, preventing it i.e don't get myself in situations I don't want to be in. Easier said than done.
SmokenMirrors
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How you doing bro? Congrats on the engagement!
DIMA-NBA
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Hey @SmokenMirrors thanks for checking in on me!
To be honest, I've been better. I've had streaks of 10 days no P during the last 2 months or so (since I haven't posted here), but I quit my job and since October I've been without a job, helping my mom, she is a real estate agent. I'm bad financially and with the upcoming holidays, Christmas, I'm feeling the pressure(getting presents for family and close ones), on top with a new diagnosis for my mental health, new medications, I haven't been feeling like myself. I will see a mental health professional in a couple of days.
On the bright side, I've lost 9KG in the past 2 months, that's been good, following a fasting regimen of 14:10 (I can eat during 12:00-22:00 and during the other hours I don't eat), combined with a calorie deficit, those things have been working for me.
Today is Day 4 of no PMO.
To be honest, I've been better. I've had streaks of 10 days no P during the last 2 months or so (since I haven't posted here), but I quit my job and since October I've been without a job, helping my mom, she is a real estate agent. I'm bad financially and with the upcoming holidays, Christmas, I'm feeling the pressure(getting presents for family and close ones), on top with a new diagnosis for my mental health, new medications, I haven't been feeling like myself. I will see a mental health professional in a couple of days.
On the bright side, I've lost 9KG in the past 2 months, that's been good, following a fasting regimen of 14:10 (I can eat during 12:00-22:00 and during the other hours I don't eat), combined with a calorie deficit, those things have been working for me.
Today is Day 4 of no PMO.
DIMA-NBA
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Update from me: I was able to abstain from PMO for 14 days, which is a personal best in the last couple of months. Although I relapsed 2 days ago, it felt different. This time it actually hurt a lot (as strange as that might sound) when I relapsed. I felt like I betrayed myself. I had set out to do one of the following things when I get an urge:
A. do 15 push ups
B. Meditate for 5 minutes +
C. Pray
I know it might not sound like much but it felt like a relief not having these glipses of P scenes on the daily, actually having some level of clarity in my thoughts. Well, I'm going to challenge myself to another 14 days of clarity starting now.
A. do 15 push ups
B. Meditate for 5 minutes +
C. Pray
I know it might not sound like much but it felt like a relief not having these glipses of P scenes on the daily, actually having some level of clarity in my thoughts. Well, I'm going to challenge myself to another 14 days of clarity starting now.
DIMA-NBA
Active Member
Day 3
I had my best workout this month at the gym yesterday. Despite of waking up with a slight headache, I still went to the gym and was very happy with the effort I put into it. I reached 162 heart rate (beats per minute) at one point during the workout, while doing supersets. That translated over to me being in a great mood through the day, which my mom noted too.
To be fair, I'm taking antidepressants for about 2 months now and I've noticed my libido drop significantly because of them, as well as the pleasure I get from being intimate with my fiancee has decreased and I don't reach O as easily as before those pills. As a result this morning, we were intimate and I didn't reach O and I was tempted to look up something provocative online(because I wanted to reach O), I even Googled provocative things while my fiancee was in the shower, literally minutes after having sex. Luckily, I stopped myself before I saw explicit content. Also thinking about ways to improve my relationship with my father, walks with the dog, riding bikes, etc.
I had my best workout this month at the gym yesterday. Despite of waking up with a slight headache, I still went to the gym and was very happy with the effort I put into it. I reached 162 heart rate (beats per minute) at one point during the workout, while doing supersets. That translated over to me being in a great mood through the day, which my mom noted too.
To be fair, I'm taking antidepressants for about 2 months now and I've noticed my libido drop significantly because of them, as well as the pleasure I get from being intimate with my fiancee has decreased and I don't reach O as easily as before those pills. As a result this morning, we were intimate and I didn't reach O and I was tempted to look up something provocative online(because I wanted to reach O), I even Googled provocative things while my fiancee was in the shower, literally minutes after having sex. Luckily, I stopped myself before I saw explicit content. Also thinking about ways to improve my relationship with my father, walks with the dog, riding bikes, etc.