Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
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stepbystep
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Nice, keeping going! Rooting for you!
BabySteps
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Hey stepbystep
Thanks for the support man!
Day 1
My Saturday night went very bad, I binged to CAM girls and couldn't stop myself from resisting the craving to jerk off. I went for something like 2.5 hours straight, went to sleep afterwards. Woke up still horny and masturbated using imagination for 90+ minutes. It all felt great.
I saw this coming but I just couldn't resist. Will get back on the horse and keep going. I refuse to let two events undo the progress I've made so far. Just have to find a way to resist the edge to watch CAM girls or masturbate for the next 30 days or so!
Moving forward!
Thanks for the support man!
Day 1
My Saturday night went very bad, I binged to CAM girls and couldn't stop myself from resisting the craving to jerk off. I went for something like 2.5 hours straight, went to sleep afterwards. Woke up still horny and masturbated using imagination for 90+ minutes. It all felt great.
I saw this coming but I just couldn't resist. Will get back on the horse and keep going. I refuse to let two events undo the progress I've made so far. Just have to find a way to resist the edge to watch CAM girls or masturbate for the next 30 days or so!
Moving forward!
imsorrynotsorry
Active Member
Hey Babysteps,
The fresh start is always worthy.
The underlying routines are very strong and they get back to us whenever they can. You saw it coming, we've all read this.
For the next streak maybe you can implement something that helps you as soon as you realize there are cravings. Any idea?
The fresh start is always worthy.
The underlying routines are very strong and they get back to us whenever they can. You saw it coming, we've all read this.
For the next streak maybe you can implement something that helps you as soon as you realize there are cravings. Any idea?
EarthWalker
Respected Member
Hi Babysteps.
Are you sure this is the real you talking and not the addiction talking?
May I suggest the following. Deep apologies if you find this triggering. This is something I am doing.
Ask your physical body. The inner child. Hey, buddy, what is up? You know the last time we PMOed.... I was soo much in my fantasy mind I didn't paid much attention to the body... I was wondering ... how did it made you feel? What are thoughts and feelings about the PMO?
Ask your emotional body. Hey, emotions, what is up, bro? You know about the last PMO. How did this made you feel really? Was it as pleasurable for you as it was for me?
Ask your mental body. Hey, my rational self. You know the last PMO we did. I thought it was awesome. What did you think about it?
Ask your soul body. Hey, bro. How is it going. The last PMO.... What are your impressions about the last PMO?
Hope you find this helpful. Wish you all the best in your Reboot.
EW
Are you sure this is the real you talking and not the addiction talking?
May I suggest the following. Deep apologies if you find this triggering. This is something I am doing.
Ask your physical body. The inner child. Hey, buddy, what is up? You know the last time we PMOed.... I was soo much in my fantasy mind I didn't paid much attention to the body... I was wondering ... how did it made you feel? What are thoughts and feelings about the PMO?
Ask your emotional body. Hey, emotions, what is up, bro? You know about the last PMO. How did this made you feel really? Was it as pleasurable for you as it was for me?
Ask your mental body. Hey, my rational self. You know the last PMO we did. I thought it was awesome. What did you think about it?
Ask your soul body. Hey, bro. How is it going. The last PMO.... What are your impressions about the last PMO?
Hope you find this helpful. Wish you all the best in your Reboot.
EW
recovery000
Member
Hey BabySteps,
You have said it already: two events cannot ruin your progress so far. Keep in mind that they fight is for freedom. Nobody can be free if he/she is slave by his/her own desires. True freedom surpasses the self. If we are not free from our desires, we are not free at all.
"It all felt great", I believe you. However feeling good is not necessarily the same as doing good. Sacrifices for a greater good fill our literature tales, movies, and culture. It is an archetype of our very own drive towards what we know is good.
Keep going and never give up
You have said it already: two events cannot ruin your progress so far. Keep in mind that they fight is for freedom. Nobody can be free if he/she is slave by his/her own desires. True freedom surpasses the self. If we are not free from our desires, we are not free at all.
"It all felt great", I believe you. However feeling good is not necessarily the same as doing good. Sacrifices for a greater good fill our literature tales, movies, and culture. It is an archetype of our very own drive towards what we know is good.
Keep going and never give up
ShadeTrenicin
Well-Known Member
Hey BS, how are you doing at the moment after your relapse? I hope you are in a good place.
I have a question for you (and it's not critique) but; do you think your approach of watching cam girls still is the way to go or have you refrained from that approach due to your latest relapse.? ALso; why do you write is as CAM girls and not cam girls? Or is CAM an acronym?
Anyway, I hope you've helped yourself back on the horse and will continue the fight, we are rooting for you!
I have a question for you (and it's not critique) but; do you think your approach of watching cam girls still is the way to go or have you refrained from that approach due to your latest relapse.? ALso; why do you write is as CAM girls and not cam girls? Or is CAM an acronym?
Anyway, I hope you've helped yourself back on the horse and will continue the fight, we are rooting for you!
BabySteps
Active Member
I feel so lonely sometimes. I wish it was just easier for me to meet a potential female.
I sometimes miss a touch of a female, but I feel so weird around them. And it's like they sense, I sometimes feel like they can see that I'm a compulsive masturbator. I remember the times when I got to 90 days PMO free, I will catch ladies checking me out. There's just something about pmoing that repel ladies, that's my views maybe I'm over thinking.
I want to have a family one day, and this is going to decrease the possibilities. I just want to get this under control. I got tired of reporting my failures to gaining control of this. Now I decided no matter what the outcome I have to keep posting on my journal.
Moving forward with hope!
I sometimes miss a touch of a female, but I feel so weird around them. And it's like they sense, I sometimes feel like they can see that I'm a compulsive masturbator. I remember the times when I got to 90 days PMO free, I will catch ladies checking me out. There's just something about pmoing that repel ladies, that's my views maybe I'm over thinking.
I want to have a family one day, and this is going to decrease the possibilities. I just want to get this under control. I got tired of reporting my failures to gaining control of this. Now I decided no matter what the outcome I have to keep posting on my journal.
Moving forward with hope!
BabySteps
Active Member
Day 17
No pmo, no MO, no CAMGIRLS
I acknowledge that I'm powerless against compulsive masturbation. I plan to avoid watching any pornographic material. But the problem is my automatic self want to keep going back to this destructive behavior.
I attempted to try meditation, but after a couple of days my system reject it. But I'll keep trying until it becomes my second nature, it will take time for me to gain control. I will to go through the process, I know I'll feel like giving up because my automatic self refuse to go down.
Moving forward!!
No pmo, no MO, no CAMGIRLS
I acknowledge that I'm powerless against compulsive masturbation. I plan to avoid watching any pornographic material. But the problem is my automatic self want to keep going back to this destructive behavior.
I attempted to try meditation, but after a couple of days my system reject it. But I'll keep trying until it becomes my second nature, it will take time for me to gain control. I will to go through the process, I know I'll feel like giving up because my automatic self refuse to go down.
Moving forward!!
EarthWalker
Respected Member
Meditation is also coming up for me. Wish you good luck with consistency.
Keep on walking.
EW
Keep on walking.
EW
BabySteps
Active Member
Hey EW
Thanks for the comment it means a lot.
Day 21
No masturbation, no pmo, no CAM girls
Just last evening I got tempted to watch CAM girls, then I thought of how long I've been struggling with this addiction. I ended up crying. Luckily focusing on my breathing helps a lot. I counted to 200, then afterwards I was able to forget about CAM girls.
I hope this will always help, I want to get rid of this. Moving forward!
Thanks for the comment it means a lot.
Day 21
No masturbation, no pmo, no CAM girls
Just last evening I got tempted to watch CAM girls, then I thought of how long I've been struggling with this addiction. I ended up crying. Luckily focusing on my breathing helps a lot. I counted to 200, then afterwards I was able to forget about CAM girls.
I hope this will always help, I want to get rid of this. Moving forward!
Nice to meet you, Baby Steps!
Yes, breathing will always help you. Because what you?re discovering is that the urge to do whatever (fill in the blank) is just thought, and you?re stronger than thought.
You can outlast any urge, as long as you see it for what it is (signals from the primal part of the brain, that cannot make you do anything).
Great job on taking back your power, and being that new version of yourself!
Yes, breathing will always help you. Because what you?re discovering is that the urge to do whatever (fill in the blank) is just thought, and you?re stronger than thought.
You can outlast any urge, as long as you see it for what it is (signals from the primal part of the brain, that cannot make you do anything).
Great job on taking back your power, and being that new version of yourself!
BabySteps said:
Definitely, BS! I'm grateful to be of help in any way I can.
What is the book displayed in your avatar?
BabySteps
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Day 0
I was out with some cousins on Saturday, decided not to drink. Then yesterday night a thought just came to me that I should blow a load. I tried destructing myself but it kept persisting, I ended up giving in.
23 days is not bad, I'll keep trying again and again until I improve.
Moving forward!
I was out with some cousins on Saturday, decided not to drink. Then yesterday night a thought just came to me that I should blow a load. I tried destructing myself but it kept persisting, I ended up giving in.
23 days is not bad, I'll keep trying again and again until I improve.
Moving forward!
That's no small potatoes, BS! That says that you didn't give this crap over 3 weeks of your time, it shows you can abstain for double-digit days.
Every day away from this is progress, and you're making healthy steps toward your goals!
I would say, You are improving!