Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation

Fappy

Respected Member
Ok keep at it mate.
And that faith of yours is also a good tool. Having something outside of yourself to give you strength is important. The exercise is good too, for reducing the self-fornication urges
 

BabySteps

Active Member
Thanks Reformer
looking forward to better days! The exercise help in keeping me grounded, even though i still struggle.
 

BabySteps

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Day 0,

Another relapse, when will this ever stop?
Whenever i am stressed i find relieve in jerking off and binging to porn.
I guess the fact that my X the mother of my son refuses me access to my son. Whrn we dated i opened up and confessed about my PMOing. Now she justifies denying access about the fact that i am addicted.

But still, i have to take this as a man and start progressing in my struggle against this compulsive PMOing! A positive fortified mental attitude will keep me grounded in time.

I will never give up fighting this drug called PMOing!
 

Fappy

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That's a shame, but don't dwell too much on it. If the trigger was stress you may need to find another stress reliever. Something physical or something that gets your brain working is good
 

BabySteps

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Hey Reformer

Thanx for the support buddy. True i have find a way to relieve stress when it hits hard.
Physical exercise does help.
 

BabySteps

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Day 1, 16:00

1) Tried meditating, counting my breaths is a challenge. The mind has so many random thoughts. Wish to improve those areas in wich i struggle!

2) Went for a hour jogging.

Will try to stick to this program
 

uncreatedlight

Active Member
When you feel an urge, don't act on it, but don't fight it either.  Inspect the urge.  Investigate how it feels.  Let yourself feel it.  Notice the sensation in your body.  Just keep focusing on it instead of trying to push it down, and it will evaporate on its own.  I know how frustrating this can be, but you are doing the right things.  You will get this.
 

BabySteps

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Hey Uncreated

I totally agree with watching the thought, when i get tempted something else takes over. I only wake after the fact.
Will try doing more of that from now.
Thanks for your input
 

BabySteps

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Day 2,16:10

1) Jogging went well, increased spreed,
2) Managed to study Querying,
3) Meditation zero, will try it again tomorrow

Moving forward and hoping to bit this cycle
 

BabySteps

Active Member
Managing this compulsive habit now, recently got a Sales representative position at some insurance company
The problem is my brain is way slow now, especially when I talk to female clients. I can feel myself boring the lady. I used to talk with ladies easy back in the days, but now it's like I have no clue who this beautiful creatures called females are?
I need help guys, has anyone ever experienced this?
 

BabySteps

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Struggled with compulsive behavior for the past 4 months.
Even forgot about this sites until now,
PMOing makes me feel empty like I don't matter, the pain I feel when I'm awkward around people is greater than the orgasm I was promised. This pleasure comes with a price I keep forgetting I'll have to pay after the act!

Time and time again my search for pleasure over comes my desire to resist and quit.
 

BabySteps

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Day 0,

I plan to hit the 30 day mark for now. Feeling hopeless and helpless with no support from anybody. I can't share my episodes with no one around.

But I will rise, will fight for regaining control of my life.
 

BabySteps

Active Member
Day 0,

I choose life, I choose hope!
Will keep fighting this until I gain control.
How foolish of me to always fall for PMO tricks, promising reward instead offerings shame and isolation!

PMO the days we used to share are coming to an end, I deserve a real relationship with a real women! You caused the mother of my son to hit exit, she always cried saying she can't compete with you. I knew she can't bit you in the virtual world, that's were you will always exist in a VIRTUAL WORLD.

I want to attract real women, have a less awkward conversation with her. 
 

BabySteps

Active Member
Day 1,

I am determined to fight back, still crave the stimulation.
But zero setback, will try to keep busy to avoid stress.
 

BabySteps

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Day 3

So far so good, let the fight continue.

I remember 2015 after my X left me, reason being obsessions with pornography. I remember being able to reboot for 4 month, and after that 4 month I was more confident. Was able to close a  couple of ladies.

I miss that confidence, no shame what so ever. NoFap does bring balance into our brains and physiology. I pray for focus and a stronger willpower
 

BabySteps

Active Member
Day 4,

No cravings yet, but the fear of rejection still there. Clinging to a promising lady still my weakness, then she rejects my calls, then I start PMO again.
 
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