Mai 11, 2019
It's been almost a month since the last relapse. I haven't had any desires to watch porn.
One night I almost gave in to tempting thoughts of fantasy, but I got corrected in mind and spirit. I went to sleep and that night I was attacked by something in my dream.
It has been said this is a battle in the mind and there's a lot of weight to that.
Ever since I got out of occult practice and the darkness of lust was shown to me in Gods light, I've been battling disturbing thoughts.
'Random' pervertedness trying to get me to lose concentration when reading. Convicting thoughts. All kinds of demonic poison.
It's the ancient liar, trying to pull me back into the dark.
Truth is and stays that Jesus is King and I've submitted my life to Him.
With that assurance I finally can rest after a decade of 'soul-searching.'
It might take time to break down all the treacherous thought patterns but I have trust in that God will renew my mind.
Again I'm going to say, don't fool yourselves guys. A life guided by the desires of the flesh isn't worth it.
Gods Holy Spirit is available for those who chose to repent from their selfish ways. It's turning back to what you once all longed for.
Try to see past your religious programming. This is about being the man you are meant to be in Gods divine light, instead of conforming yourself to the standards of society.
This is about true freedom, love and peace. This is about the children of wrath becoming children of light. Take it from someone who was deeply embedded in darkness.
Might have to write a testimony sometime