First serious Reboot attempt

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Hello guys. I am new here. I have addicted porn for  14 years. At first, it was curiosity that drives me to use porn. Pleasurable sensations,  plenty of porn on the internet.  As years passed it became an addiction, an underground thought of mind. The way of thinking has changed. performance in studies steadily come down to a point where I am standing now and that is the worst thing happened because of PMO and bad health. It is hardwired to the brain and I can't even think of recovery before. I searched for a cure about this and read many articles on different sites about the side effects, started practicing meditation. But none of this is could convince my mind to do a recovery. Depression, worries, fear, pain, shame, regret, anger this is the mind's state now. I have tried reboot before but that always leads to relapse of 4-5 times a day and shame, regret that. Now I feel if I don't stop this addiction here it would consume me. Few weeks before I had a dream implies that.

I wish I could recover from this at the earliest. Not just the addiction but save me from this depression. To be free.
Today I am on my 11th day and counting..
 
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