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Kraken

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Getting a little challenging today. I’m exhausted from the beginning of the week and this is when I typically run into pmo trouble. I’m alone, at the computer and am having trouble focusing on work.

So I made a list of what I need to do at work today and completed it. That’s different from when I normally run into trouble. Then I stop work a little early and am playing some video games. Which has been good but has a limited lifespan of enjoyment.

So I’m planning what to do next. I’m thinking a nap, a walk or reading a book.
 
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I had a good, day. It got a little challenging there for a minute but I played some slower paced strategy games, then went to the gym with my wife and then out to dinner with family.
 
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Since yesterday showed that I was exhausted, I got an extra hour of sleep last night and that seems to have helped a lot. It’s funny getting more sleep when tired makes a lot of logical sense but that’s not my first instinct. My first instinct when exhausted is to play video games. Which really isn’t a relaxing activity. It’s really fun and has a place but it’s cerebral recreation and very stimulating for my mind. Not really a restful activity although it can be a nice escape and a safe place for creativity.

Since I now have a car, I am playing on going to the library for a few hours this afternoon to break up the day. Very few meetings and next week will be all meetings so I intend to use today to prepare for next week and clear my plate. I am flying across the country to work with the owner of my company on high level business management. I’m really excited about it and want to make the most of the opportunity.

Last night I prevented my mind from sexually fantasizing to fall asleep. Instead I watched a show on my iPad. I’m learning that what you think about right before falling asleep is pretty important and tends to affect the next few days at least.

I had a good yesterday and I’m looking forward to tonight, we are all going out to dinner us and some family.
 
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I had a nice day, went to the farmers market, had breakfast with family and played a few hours of overwatch and civ 6. Now I am going to get ready for by business trip tomorrow and I’m also going to a community party tonight so that should be fun.
 
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Solid day today, I’m a little nervous about my business trip, it’s more pressure than I am used to but it’s also an exciting opportunity to become more of a leader.

The reboot is going well
 
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@Kraken good luck on your business trip. i am so eager to hearing how it goes! you got this! you have been focused and on top of things from what your entries tell me. continue the hard work and let this business trip be the main focus, bye bye pmo!
 
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chap said:
@Kraken good luck on your business trip. i am so eager to hearing how it goes! you got this! you have been focused and on top of things from what your entries tell me. continue the hard work and let this business trip be the main focus, bye bye pmo!
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Thanks Chap! I’m a little nervous about being alone in the hotel room but I think I’ll be tired and really busy with work plus I’ve been working on my skills for better self care when alone so it will okay.
 
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chap

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i trust that you will be able to overcome your temptations. you have listed different ways to avoid pmo. personally my current mission is to avoid P at all costs, but i have no restrictions over MO. it's ur call how u r approaching this moment of ur reboot. but i confidently believe u can get through this business trip w/o pmo. u got this!
 
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chap said:
i trust that you will be able to overcome your temptations. you have listed different ways to avoid pmo. personally my current mission is to avoid P at all costs, but i have no restrictions over MO. it's ur call how u r approaching this moment of ur reboot. but i confidently believe u can get through this business trip w/o pmo. u got this!
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Thanks Chap! I also have no restrictions on mo so that is an option but I haven’t felt the need to do that yet in this reboot. Thanks for the encouragement!
 
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The trip is going really well so far. I actually haven’t had much time alone at all, lots of working and tonight an old friend drove an hour to see me. That meant a lot.
 
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Made it back home. Had a solid trip. Went to a sporting event with my wife last night and that was awesome. Today I had off but still had to do some house chores that I was able to complete. Looking forward to a relaxing Labor Day! End of day 20
 
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I had a dream last night that I pmo’d and felt bad about it and wish I didn’t do it. Then I woke up and was like wow that’s awesome, that actually didn’t happen. It was just a dream. I’m feeling good, the reboot has helped in all areas of my life and I am grateful for the journey
 
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