Kraken's journal
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had a great vacation but now that I’m back im getting overwhelmed with all the things I have to do plus my new work responsibilities are super tiring. I spent most of my recharge time today playing video games and I’ll be honest, it was fun and helped me chill out. But the tiredness and overwhel stress was not reduced. So I need to incorporate other rechargers tomorrow. I’m going to do a 20 min nap, reduce meetings where I can, switch up work locations, maybe work outside, and maybe do a kettlebell workout
I’m glad I wrote down my plan on here the night before when I felt like the next day might be challenging. It would have been but I followed my plan, worked outside for an hour l, took a nap and ended up having a great work day and saw some family for dinner as well.
I’m still feeling really tired so my plan is to do yoga tomorrow and a nap. I have work plus a doctors appt plus a dmv appt so that’s annoying but it will all be okay.
Kraken
I’m still feeling really tired so my plan is to do yoga tomorrow and a nap. I have work plus a doctors appt plus a dmv appt so that’s annoying but it will all be okay.
Kraken
It’s been a challenging and scary few days. On Sunday I passed out for a few seconds while working out at the gym. I went to the hospital and all the test came back good so I’m happy about that. I had taken a new supplement and then worked out really hard so that might have triggered something idk. Unsettling. This year has been really challenging man.
Kraken
Kraken
Thought I was fainting again in the store yesterday but turns out it was probably a panic attack. That’s a new one. It’s been a heck of a week. But porns not an option. Fuck that shit. Riding through the storm with my head as high as I can keep it over here. Therapy has been very helpful.
Start of reboot was Aug 9th so that makes today day 89!
I was feeling a little bored and horny but I was thinking about it and decided to go here in the forum and seeing I am one day from 90 there is no way I’m dropping the ball now. So close. The reboot has been a very positive experience and my life is much improved without pmo so I am going to keep that going.
Keep on,
Kraken
I was feeling a little bored and horny but I was thinking about it and decided to go here in the forum and seeing I am one day from 90 there is no way I’m dropping the ball now. So close. The reboot has been a very positive experience and my life is much improved without pmo so I am going to keep that going.
Keep on,
Kraken
Thanks everyone for your support. It feels really good to reach 90 days in my reboot. Throughout the reboot I had a few times where I watched scantily clad women for a few minutes before backing off and stopping. I also m’d a handful of times. But I never went on p sites or pmod for the last 90 days which is a huge deal and that was my goal.
And those moments of challenge are sources of growth. When it’s hard and you persist, you grow.
More importantly, the reboot has given me back my inner confidence. I have a lightness in my mind and a sense of peace that I am back on track. On track for me means that I have mental stability, I am strong, my family can rely on me and I take care of myself.
Reboots work. Thank you for being on this journey with me. I plan to keep posting but not to count days past the 90. I don’t plan on slipping up with pmo but if it happens, I have the experience of my two reboots to remind me that life without porn is well worth the effort. My brain feels refreshed.
Sending you love,
Kraken
And those moments of challenge are sources of growth. When it’s hard and you persist, you grow.
More importantly, the reboot has given me back my inner confidence. I have a lightness in my mind and a sense of peace that I am back on track. On track for me means that I have mental stability, I am strong, my family can rely on me and I take care of myself.
Reboots work. Thank you for being on this journey with me. I plan to keep posting but not to count days past the 90. I don’t plan on slipping up with pmo but if it happens, I have the experience of my two reboots to remind me that life without porn is well worth the effort. My brain feels refreshed.
Sending you love,
Kraken
Alright so I came up with an idea to have a new focus for the next 90 days on one of the five needs that I have identified for myself. I’ve noticed that with a period of focus it is possible to develop habits and get things moving and then eventually move things into a maintenance phase which is much easier to juggle than trying to make major progress on five goals at once.
Of my five goals I feel like two are on maintenance and are going well. The one I want to focus on for the next 90 days is a peaceful zen house. I work from home and for many reasons, I feel like now is the right time to give my physical environment some love.
I’m going to be following the program in Marie Kondos life changing magic of tidying up. This consists of first getting rid of things that don’t bring joy by category and then selecting storage options so everything has a home.
I started over this past weekend catching up on basic chores. I’ll still post here on the journal occasionally about my pmo free journey but I’m excited to share my progress in this new focus regularly. In reality, they are all connected.
For this week, I plan to go through my papers, and the first half of komono (misc) toiletries, shoes, backpacks, hats, belts, valuables, and electronics.
Hope you all are doing well!
Of my five goals I feel like two are on maintenance and are going well. The one I want to focus on for the next 90 days is a peaceful zen house. I work from home and for many reasons, I feel like now is the right time to give my physical environment some love.
I’m going to be following the program in Marie Kondos life changing magic of tidying up. This consists of first getting rid of things that don’t bring joy by category and then selecting storage options so everything has a home.
I started over this past weekend catching up on basic chores. I’ll still post here on the journal occasionally about my pmo free journey but I’m excited to share my progress in this new focus regularly. In reality, they are all connected.
For this week, I plan to go through my papers, and the first half of komono (misc) toiletries, shoes, backpacks, hats, belts, valuables, and electronics.
Hope you all are doing well!
This week has been solid on the pmo side of things, no drama there. My wife slipped on some ice and fell on her wrist, so she is in a cast and that means I have to step up and help out more than usual since she is basically one handed right now.
We had a nice weekend, and work was good this week.
Workout wise, I did weightlifting twice this week and also went on an hour walk for a total of three days of intentional exercise. I planned on doing an additional walk or run but I’m happy with the thee days I got.
I am getting more confident and my social anxiety that developed after I passed out at the gym and had a panic attack for the first time is slowing improving.
Doing tlc on my house and bringing it to a peaceful state is off to a good start as well. I didn’t do any tidying, getting rid of or organizing this week, however, I dug us out of a mountain of laundry, dishes and a bunch of other chores. Which is really a prerequisite to the other stuff so I’m happy about that.
Sending you peaceful long distance vibes,
Kraken
We had a nice weekend, and work was good this week.
Workout wise, I did weightlifting twice this week and also went on an hour walk for a total of three days of intentional exercise. I planned on doing an additional walk or run but I’m happy with the thee days I got.
I am getting more confident and my social anxiety that developed after I passed out at the gym and had a panic attack for the first time is slowing improving.
Doing tlc on my house and bringing it to a peaceful state is off to a good start as well. I didn’t do any tidying, getting rid of or organizing this week, however, I dug us out of a mountain of laundry, dishes and a bunch of other chores. Which is really a prerequisite to the other stuff so I’m happy about that.
Sending you peaceful long distance vibes,
Kraken
Having a bit more challenge today on the pmo side of things. I’m tired and bored and a few times for a few minutes I was scrolling a social media site and there was some scantily clad content. I stopped both times after watching for a few minutes and didn’t go to p or m. But still a little disappointing and frustrating this is coming up today. I’ve been working really hard and I’m exhausted.
I have therapy today and besides that I’m going to focus today on recharging and resting.
I have therapy today and besides that I’m going to focus today on recharging and resting.