Squidward81
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Man, I hear you about the crazy urges. Guys talk about the wave and it's so real. I don't know what will help you deal with that but looking at new strategies for when this cycle comes again might be a good place to start.I again succumbed to chat rooms today . I will be restarting a reboot from tomorrow and I will reap the 88 day clean streak this time to hit January 1st 2021 with a 88 day clean streak milestone .
I know I maybe sounding like a joke right now .
but I could not stop myself i tried god knows
I will keep trying and get atleast an 88 day clean streak jn 2021 . I have to do this now or never .
things I did better last time was I kept telling myself I will take control in those vulnerable moments and I did once … but by second time the urges hit me In no time I was on bad websites and that too after unblocking router each time as I know all passwords . I would see that monster prepping up my mind to go to bad sites I would fight those thoughts off and then there you go the urge is back next day to break the rules I ward it off all again with some scathes , and then BAM!!! it comes back with a HUGE urge inside my mind the third day of fight and then I go went down succumbing today : (
restarting towards 88 day clean streak in 2021 from tomorrow morning. This time I will not loose . I promise to myself
I hope you are able to deal with all the feelings that come after a moment like this. You aren't hopeless. You arent so messed up. It's just gonna take time to get rid of this. You've got this man.