Day 4 again
I wanted to stay away from phone and manage my urges and get back to sober ways but what I did was just picked up phone late just before hitting bed and chatted filthy for 75 mins .
the rebellious side of me did take over my wish for sobriety and I finally stopped without MO ing but felt terrible that I did not stick to my discipline schedule I have planned for myself.
living a disciplined and sober life is still a dream for me .
my urges set me go like a freak and breaks all the order and organization I am trying to bring into my life .
day 5 tomorrow .
I need to do Better than this … why am I not doing it ? Because I chose wrong thing … I had a moment to make that right choice … I did not make the right choice … that’s the only reason I am here miserable…. And typing
I wanted to stay away from phone and manage my urges and get back to sober ways but what I did was just picked up phone late just before hitting bed and chatted filthy for 75 mins .
the rebellious side of me did take over my wish for sobriety and I finally stopped without MO ing but felt terrible that I did not stick to my discipline schedule I have planned for myself.
living a disciplined and sober life is still a dream for me .
my urges set me go like a freak and breaks all the order and organization I am trying to bring into my life .
day 5 tomorrow .
I need to do Better than this … why am I not doing it ? Because I chose wrong thing … I had a moment to make that right choice … I did not make the right choice … that’s the only reason I am here miserable…. And typing