Day 7!!!! Have some urges but i think i am going strong. Ive been keeping up with my gym schedule and starting to slowly see some results. I got an important exam tomorow so tonight I will be stressed and will sleep late. These are not good mind states for me to be in so tonight will be risky, but I will stick with my rules and won't get my phone and my laptop to bathroom and to bed. In addition I will study in school library next to my friends so I will try to focus in the moment. I am happy with my life. I used to watch porn to feel good because I was depressed and life was hard and I was lonely. Now I have friends and I am somewhat succesful in life, I have hobbies and a future career that I like. I like my life. But I still watch porn. Nowadays I see no reason for it. So I need to remember, I don't need porn anymore. I will get rid of porn from my life and I will be where I want to be in my life!
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8 days! I am really tired and sleep and have urges. I had my exam today and slept very little. So I will take a short nap now. After that I need to study again I got exams all week. So I think these urges are happening today because I am tired. But I won't fall for it. I will go take a short nap now then go to library to study!
I just entered 9th day. Its around 2 am. Meaning I am staying up much later than I should. I will sleep after posing this. I have urges, I think its because I am tired and because 9 days is usuallly when I fail. Not this time though. I am listening to my rules. It will all work out. I just need to trust the process and give myself time and listen to my body and feelings. One day at a time.
Wow today in the morning I had bad cravings. I was supposed to go to the gym at 9 am but I decided not to go and as I was sitting in my room I got horny. BUT I DIDNT CAVE IN! I played some video games and solved some questions, then met with frieends with lunch and then I even went to the gym!!! Now I am back, rested. I will shower and go to the library to study. I feel very happy about this progress 
I am still going at it, day 11 now. I am really sleepy, exam periods are causing me to stay up longer than id like. And I think this is giving me cravings. But I will fight them. Today I accidently brought my phone to bed as I was gonna nap, but then i went and put it back down. Usually i would just say 1 time doesn't hurt you are already doing well, but this time i didn't fall to my own trap. I can do this. If I can get through next 4 days exam period will end and I will be relaxed again. Just 4 days! Even better, today has just 13 hours left. One day at a time!
Today is actually going pretty hard. I took a nap to get to a better mental state but i started having sexual dreams. I didn't come but I woke up horny. I still didn't give up though I am keeping my cool. Just remember its all in my head and I am stronger and happier without porn.
Day 12. I still can't believe I went through yesterday without relapse lol. I still have ome urges but not as bad as yesterday. I slept at 5 am yesterday and now woke up at 9 to study more. After exam I will crash and take a long nap. Still have some urges, my penis feels more alive which makes me much more hornier. I hope I can be disciplined and not relapse today. All the boundries I set for myself I am following them so far. I just need to keep doing that!
3 Hours till today ends! I can't believe I almost made it to 2 weeks. I can do this!!! Today theres again lots of urges, can't really tell why this time but I think its natural to be horny if I haven't jerked off in 2 weeks hahah. So I just need to accept this as fact and live with it. I can do this if i follow my rules. Peeking is = failing. If I ever peek it will just lead to more porn and then I will relapse. And so I won't peak. I won't use my phone on the bathroom and the bedroom and I will try to socialize. I am about to go meet my girlfriend now so that should help get the urges off a little. Just 2 more days till 14 days.
Its finally day 13. I am craving it so much... I am going to sleep soon but I don't know what I can do about this. I got a pornstar in my mind and I can't get it off my mind which is making me crazy and makes me wanna search stuff. But I made it through 12 days I need to get through next 24 hours too. Does anyone have advice for me? Its really hard. Usually how I fail is I think of a pornstar and tell myself I wonder if she has new videos or I check her one second and then i relapse. I don't want to do this this time. If anyone has any advice I will try to listen. Thank you. I will read a book and sleep now. Day 13 just started so I need to get through 24 hours pretty much!
quitforeverthenwin2
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Stay strong man, you're doing great!
Getting through this urge will help heal your brain, you'll have more motivation. Be able to accomplish more.
Imagine the next time you see your family... won't it be so damn nice to see them and know you got through this craving and are two weeks clean?
Do whatever you need to do. People used to cross deserts and arctic bridges to survive. Maybe you have to stay up all night to get through it.... DO IT! You'll actually feel great tomorrow.
Getting through this urge will help heal your brain, you'll have more motivation. Be able to accomplish more.
Imagine the next time you see your family... won't it be so damn nice to see them and know you got through this craving and are two weeks clean?
Do whatever you need to do. People used to cross deserts and arctic bridges to survive. Maybe you have to stay up all night to get through it.... DO IT! You'll actually feel great tomorrow.
I FUCKING FAILED AGAIN AHHH. I WAS DOING SO WELL I DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED. I was just horny and my filters didn't work and I failed fuck me man. I don't know why I felt this was I was doing so good this 2 weeks I almost made it to 2 weeks I don't know what else I can do... I really tried this week. Its better than last time. Maybe I can aim for 14 days this time... Im just so sad I've been struggling with porn for so long
I don't know what else I can do... I really tried this week. Its better than last time. Maybe I can aim for 14 days this time... Im just so sad I've been struggling with porn for so long Well so whats next for my next attempt. Not getting my phone or pc to bathroom or bed worked wonders. I think I will definitely stick to it. I will also put a timer on my laptop so it will stop having internet access after 12(does anyone know a software that I can make this happen?) I won't be able to set the timer for tonight because we are going to be studying with my girlfriend and friends till morning for an exam tomorrow.
I think one of the reasons for my fail could be attributed to the fact that I wasn't able to gym for last couple days and didn't sleep enough maybe. So next task is working on that I think.
I think one of the reasons for my fail could be attributed to the fact that I wasn't able to gym for last couple days and didn't sleep enough maybe. So next task is working on that I think.
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ogito123 said:
Definitely. A big thing Blueheronfan (who is having a lot of success) brought up is that we have to catch ourselves earlier in the process. There seems to be a point of no return where it's pretty done for. So catching the small things and catching the urge earlier and earlier in the process is really important.
Like right now, I have been getting these super brief thoughts of old pmo stuff popping into my head, they are very weak, almost not there no feelings attached to them. The stupid/addictive part of brain may think it's okay to endgage with these thoughts, but it's not. It's pretty easy to eliminate all these thoughts now and keep myself occupied. But if I didn't do that and I engage with them, fantasize etc. that would have me probably done for in 2-3 days. So it's like I am getting through my urge now, two days in advance, when it's quite doable (It takes being humble and vigilant). Rather then having to fight it when it reaches that super strong point. Granted those strong urges happen, but looking for any little thing early on to handle can help the odds.
So lack of sleep, not working out. For sure contribute, any other factors in the last few days you can think of? So you can correct them in the future?
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ogito123 said:I FUCKING FAILED AGAIN AHHH. I WAS DOING SO WELL I DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED. I was just horny and my filters didn't work and I failed fuck me man. I don't know why I felt this was I was doing so good this 2 weeks I almost made it to 2 weeks
Keep your chin up man, all is not lost. It's one time in 13 days, better then everyday. Maybe change the way you think about the bolded part: You had a very strong urge/ craving for pmo. It's different than being horny. That helps a bit for me to not rationalize "gray area" stuff. Horny is connecting with a woman sexually. Staring at a girl's body parts for a dopamine kick (what I've done) or a seemingly unbearable urge to sit in front of a computer screen alone, is part of our addictive neural pathways, not our natural horniness.
quitforeverthenwin2
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Hope you get back on the horse soon. It's not a failure so long as you keep at it
quitforeverthenwin2
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Welcome back man, almost all of us have been in this position. Just keep chipping away at it bit by bit. Checking out others journals can help a bit too, and also SUCCESS stories! I forget to do that, but the success story section provides a lot of inspiration and best practices. Just keep on going and keep trying. You'll get it. Each little streak you got is still strengthening your brain and preparing you for the next one.
Thank you very much man, I really appreciate these supportive messages. I am tired and horny now and I was about to watch porn but I made the decision to write on this forum and then sleep. I am happy I was able to control myself now. I hope I will get to be succesfull tomorrow too. Heres to a good tomorrow!
quitforeverthenwin2
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That is great man! Writing on the forum instead is a huge help to getting through those URGES (think of that feeling as an URGE not horniness, I recommend at least). When you get a few months clean you'll feel what real natural horniness is, it's a good feeling and not a feeling like you "have" to do something now.
Anyways man keep it up! Man I had a very powerful urge two days ago and posted like 5+ times that night to get through it, it worked! So I encourage you not to be shy about posting to get through urges if that works for you. And do it as much as you need.
Anyways man keep it up! Man I had a very powerful urge two days ago and posted like 5+ times that night to get through it, it worked! So I encourage you not to be shy about posting to get through urges if that works for you. And do it as much as you need.