fedupwithporn
Member
Dear Journal,
The last couple of days, I've been relapsing and it doesn't feel good. Tonight I got really scared that my sexual tastes are getting more sensational and relying on shock factor to get aroused causing me to seek out degradation porn that doesn't align with my values as a person. Not only have I experienced some of the usual impacts of prn usage like depression loss of sleep, low energy and high anxiety, but also I'm deeply concerned with what porn is doing to my brains tendency to objectify women. I think I may need help combatting this addiction and I'm seriously considering getting the help of a therapist, but at the moment I'm very scared of needing to go through my parents in order to get therapy help and so I'm very scared of the idea of telling them why I want to get help and being judged. I don't want to be judged for this problem or have to be that vulnerable share my lack of self control when it comes to porn. I fear being seen as a sexual deviant and a bad person for liking sex/porn and getting any good feelings from it.
... More to come soon.
The last couple of days, I've been relapsing and it doesn't feel good. Tonight I got really scared that my sexual tastes are getting more sensational and relying on shock factor to get aroused causing me to seek out degradation porn that doesn't align with my values as a person. Not only have I experienced some of the usual impacts of prn usage like depression loss of sleep, low energy and high anxiety, but also I'm deeply concerned with what porn is doing to my brains tendency to objectify women. I think I may need help combatting this addiction and I'm seriously considering getting the help of a therapist, but at the moment I'm very scared of needing to go through my parents in order to get therapy help and so I'm very scared of the idea of telling them why I want to get help and being judged. I don't want to be judged for this problem or have to be that vulnerable share my lack of self control when it comes to porn. I fear being seen as a sexual deviant and a bad person for liking sex/porn and getting any good feelings from it.
... More to come soon.