Very likely to have a weird combination of venous leakage with pied. (25)

Jeks

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Feeling pretty good today, again better morning erections than in the last months. I will have a lot to do in the next days. Next semester is starting soon. But if things stay like this, i am at least able to function. This already would be a big improvement.
 

Jeks

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Preparations for the upcomming semester have started. In comparison to some months ago there are real perspectives and hope. Morning ections were weak a few days after a wet dream, but  they are coming back. The groundwork is there now. I just have to finish it now.
Bladder is still a little uncomfortable sometimes, but i am able to do everything, i have to do. And it also got so much better already. There is no reason to believe, that it wont get better or even back to normal.
 

Jeks

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Last days my bladder was a little more up and down again. Fortunately i tried a new treatment, which thus far works very well. Its milk mixed with curcurma. Curcurma is supposed to be incredibly healthy and it seems to be working for me.
Preparations for the semesters are going on. I hope, that i will be able to work with even more determination, when my bladder is staying like this. Because thats also what seems to be necessary.
 

Jeks

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I finally have found a treatment for my bladder, which is consistent and gives me the feeling, that i will be able to live with it. Day by day i feel like it gets better.
But whats really crazy about it: also my erections are improving day by day. I would say, there are even moments, im which i am getting very close to a 100%. Its only seconds, but it is major progress in contrast to before.
I fucking had that feeling, that my bladder problem was hindering my progress with rebooting. Thats why it fucked me up even more.
I have the appointmemt at the hospital on monday. I will still demand a test for VL, because after so many months getting clarity will just help me to be ensured. But i am more and more convinced again, that porn was the (only) problem and that rebooting and soon rewirinig will get me healthy.

So dont loose hope guys. I am now around 20 months in this process and see now improvements again in a long time. I could get no erections to porn or without. There was nothing. It was so bad, that i was basically sure, that it has to be something physiological.
Good luck to all of you.
 

Jeks

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Well, dont know what to really think about this.
So first of all, there seemes to be an explanation for my erectyle dysfunction and also my irritable bladder. Seems like i have got plaques in the bood vesselsof my penis. It seems to be connected to the diagnosis of VL i have had some years ago. Good news is, there seems to be a good chance, that it can be resolved. Bad thing, its not the cheapest thing in the world. I will have to ask my parents for help with this. I hope, that this can hopefully be the last step for a life with a somewhat normal sex life. Fortunately there will be no surgery needed.
Nonetheless its clear to me, that porn was a problem. Even though i did not know what the problem was, my symptoms got better after cutting out porn from my life. 
In the end i am just tired of this shit. I just want to get better. I will now take care of my diet and then hopefully will get better soon.

I have another appointment on monday at another hospital. That means i can also verify the opinion of the doctors i had an appointment with today by other urologists.
 

Jeks

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Okay, i got some things wrong yesterday. The plaque is not in the vessels, but in the cavernous body. Its a disease called induratio penis plastica.
I think that i already had this in 2018, when i was diagnosed with VL. IPP can cause VL. The doctors said yesterday it might be also the other way around, but i found nothing on the internet bscking this up. Also it might have been so small back then, that it was not noticeable.
Now one more interesting thing: IPP can be developed by traunatic events on the cavernous body, such as rough sex or masturbation. I think this might be the part, where porn consumption might be linked to all of this. Of course its just me thinking out loud. I am no doctor.
IPP can often times be noticed, because it often causes the erected penis to be bend in unnatural ways. Because of the lack of erections i never noticed it, but when i had good erections there indeed was a unnatural bend to it. Secoundly it often causes pain, when the penis gets erected.
All in all i think it might be possible that heavy porn use and rough M could cause IPP, which can cause VL.
I dont say that to make peoole paranoid. I could be wrobg on that. But it might be worth getting checked by an urologist, if one founds himself in this description.
With me it also seems ro be the case, that the plaque does pressure my urethra, which is why i often feel the urge to pee. But that seems a little more unusual.
All in all, if i might be right, it should be a big wake up call to people to really taking their porn addictions serious.
I dont identify myself as a heavy death grip user and still got IPP. And again other causes for my IPP might be also plausible. Maybe i had a an accident as a child, i cant remember. Or maybe i am just genetically more vulnerable to this. But i think the porn-IPP-connection sounds also pretty reasonable.
 

quitforeverthenwin2

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Glad to hear you got a diagnosis. Hopefully knowing specifically what the problem is and having a possible path forward makes things feel more manageable
 

Bilbo Swaggins

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Sorry to hear about this, Jeks. I know you?ve been struggling for a while and that it must not be easy right now. Rooting for you, friend.
 

Jeks

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Thanks you two,

i feel better since the diagnosis. With a diagnosis comes hope, that there is a way to get it fixed.
Today i have a second examniation in order to get a second opinion about this whole thing.
Had a easier time the last days to get myself to do stuff.

Edit: diagnosis seems legit
 

Jeks

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I am very confused the last days.
Since the diagnoses i am noticing how my inner defenses against artificial stimulation and masturbation are getting weaker. I have to be more strict again. I did not relapse. I am not there yet. But i started playing with these kind of thoughts in my mind again.
Despite the diagnosis everything points to the possibility that P also played a factor in my ED. Firstly maybe did my rough M habits due to porn cause the IPP. Secoundly i was not even able to get some kind of erection or orgasm without P in the past. The reboot helped with that.
Moreso it is just too much of a risk. I can not go back to porn. It is just no option. I will not go back. I gotta start avoiding trigger again as i used to.
 
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought venous leak would be ruled out if you could get MW for at least a few minutes. Is that not the case? The ability to get an erection from MW means the problem isn't physical but mental. I could be wrong. Either way, I agree that you should continue to stay away from PMO even if your diagnosis is that you have a physical abnormality. Stay strong.
 

Jeks

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If you mean having 100% MW for a few minutes, you are probably right. I think, that would be a strong indicator, that your ED has no physiological cause.
If you just get weak MW, it still can be PIED, but unfotunately that doesnt rule out VL or other physiological causes. My best erections in the morning were maybe around 80% for maybe one or two minutes. But thats said, i am already rebooting for soon two years without relapsing (sometimes masturbating).
The diagnosis seems very legit. Both doctors i went to told me, that the blood vessels in parts of my penis are practically none-existent. Additionally it also explains my frequent urination problem. The diagnosis is not primarily VL but induratio penis plastica (IPP), which can be the cause of VL.

 
Oh, okay that makes sense. Have they discussed treatment with you? I hope you can find some ways to manage the symptoms of your diagnosis. Maybe viagra or something along that line would be prescribed. I looked it up and it's said it may be helpful, not 100%. Either way, follow the advice of your doctor but I would still stay away from PMO.
 

Jeks

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Thank for your thoughts on the situation. There is a therapy, which is not invasive. I hope, this will be able to help.

I dont want to make anyone feel tempted, but since when are there basically cam girls on twitch??? i really did not know that.
Caught me completely off guard. However, i am not a big twitch user, so maybe thats why i did not know. Did immidiately close it. Fortunately it doesnt take that long anymore for the images to disappear out of my mind, but its fucking annoying.
Y'all be careful using twitch...
 

Jeks

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Man, feeling much better since the diagnosis.
I have got a much easier time on avoiding to procrastinate, because it actually feels like it makes a difference, whether i am working on my future or not. Before it did not matter, because i just felt awful all the time, it did not really matter, what i did, because it had?d absolutely no effect on my mood.
 

Jeks

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Thanks zander, yeah it feels like i can breath for the first time in a long time.
Might have seen my ex today in the metro. I am not sure because i avoided the situation. Lots of bad feelings came up at that moment. It wasnt just anger, but contempt i think is the best word for it.
Showed me clearly there is still a long way to go. I think i will only be able to not care about her, when i managed to create a good life for myself. After 2 and a half years i finally made some good progress, but there is still a lot to do...
 

Jeks

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I am definitely on my way back. Hill doesnt feel as steep anymore. I will ask the doctors tomorrow, how long it might take to notice improvements. Whats definitely changed is, that i am much more motivated to do stuff.
There is definitely hope again.
I had some little problems with staying away from M the last week, but i think i am good again. Porn stays no option for me. Even if it might not be the reason for my ED, it was a big problem for me. No reason for the risk and i have lost so many years of my sexula life. No reason to waste it on this shit.
 

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I am definitely on my way back. Hill doesnt feel as steep anymore. I will ask the doctors tomorrow, how long it might take to notice improvements. Whats definitely changed is, that i am much more motivated to do stuff.
There is definitely hope again.
I had some little problems with staying away from M the last week, but i think i am good again. Porn stays no option for me. Even if it might not be the reason for my ED, it was a big problem for me. No reason for the risk and i have lost so many years of my sexula life. No reason to waste it on this shit.
So glad to hear you’re in a better place mentally and seeing improvement, Jeks!
Keep truckin’ one day at a time 💪🏼
 

Jeks

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Thanks a lot Gabe! Thank you for the community and website you have build and your engagement in getting awareness around this topic. It is a great lesson for us all, that even if you suffer from Porn induced problems, you can make it into something worthwile, when you managed to recover.
Even though my problems may not be only porn-induced, i am very thankful to have this forum to get in contact with other people with ED. It helps a ton! Thank you for taking your time to leave people messages to keep their spirits high.

I had my first therapy session yesterday. I am trying extracorporal shockwave therapy, which is not invasive and supposed to help with the plaque and also with rebuilding new blood vessels. It is the only therapy, which is not invasive besides ED pills, so i wanted to try it out, even though it is not cheap.
Good news is, that even after one session my urge to pee has already reduced. Thats also, what its supposed to help a lot with. With ED there might come noticeable changes maybe after 4-5 weeks, but it can also take longer.

Wish you all the strenght you need to get over all of you struggles.
 
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