faenoe
Active Member
Day 59
Recovery is an incredible process. It's incredibly difficult, rewarding, and, it seems, most of all, incredibly unpredictable. There is no knowing just how your recovery is going to go.
I heard this quote today while watching a youtube video: "There are parts of life that aren't pleasurable, but rewarding."
Today I am battling like never before to control my behavior. My cortisol levels are raging and telling my brain to do something to relieve the stress. I hopped on for the support and encouragement I always find here. I started working out a little bit too to hopefully help with the stress levels.
Man, my brain has been seriously wired to use porn/MO as a way to deal with stress. That is not what I want. I will choose to remain in my state of sobriety because my goal is to never leave this state again.
anon, I can't tell you how much this idea has meant to me over the past couple of days. Thank you for writing this. Once again, coming onto the forum has helped my brain get out of that destructive rut and remember the facade of destruction disguised as relief that porn truly is. Stay strong out there.
Recovery is an incredible process. It's incredibly difficult, rewarding, and, it seems, most of all, incredibly unpredictable. There is no knowing just how your recovery is going to go.
I heard this quote today while watching a youtube video: "There are parts of life that aren't pleasurable, but rewarding."
Today I am battling like never before to control my behavior. My cortisol levels are raging and telling my brain to do something to relieve the stress. I hopped on for the support and encouragement I always find here. I started working out a little bit too to hopefully help with the stress levels.
Man, my brain has been seriously wired to use porn/MO as a way to deal with stress. That is not what I want. I will choose to remain in my state of sobriety because my goal is to never leave this state again.
anonfromfinance said:just staying sober every single day is a big accomplishment itself.
anon, I can't tell you how much this idea has meant to me over the past couple of days. Thank you for writing this. Once again, coming onto the forum has helped my brain get out of that destructive rut and remember the facade of destruction disguised as relief that porn truly is. Stay strong out there.