Starting it today

dbegazo11

Member
Today's my first day in Reboot Nation. I've been on porn for about a year and I've had enough. It's destroying my happiness in life and I'm going to stop.  October 16, 2019. It's a new beginning. I'm nervous, but they told me you win wars with others on your side. So please, stand by me and help support me through my struggle. It's hard, but I know I will get through. Thanks guys. And please keep me accountable.
 

dbegazo11

Member
Today was a good day. It's a streak of one and I'm feeling good. I've been busy for the most part so I didn't have time for open thoughts. Imma need to pull it together for tomorrow though cuz Fridays and Saturdays are my weakest days so prayers and support needed. We can do this! :)
 

dbegazo11

Member
Today went by smooth. I forgot to mention that I'm a high school sophomore and porn had controlled who I was and what I enjoyed in life. I wouldn't even talk to girls because I'd only resort to porn, but I know that I'll make it through despite the road. My brain will reboot.
 

dbegazo11

Member
Damn, it's been a week. I almost fell for it today, but I powered through it and I've been doing pretty good. I'm a little bit happier, but I need to fully reboot. I have gotten to a week free of porn multiple times, but never any more than a month. So that's my goal. Imma get there. No more solitude. No more sexual fantasies. Just reality.
 

dbegazo11

Member
I've been going really strong today and I've been feeling the strength of God today. I know this is kind of off, but I'm glad that Jesus is King dropped. "God Is" talked about Kanye's liberation from addiction and I strive to be that way too. I want to feel free. I know that I will reach my goal of a month. It's going to be successful.
 

dbegazo11

Member
Today was a a rough day. I was tempted last night and today in the morning with pornography. It was really on my mind and I had a tough time getting rid of it. I fell down today. And it feels like trash. I just don't want to feel alone. I'm trying. But that is now behind me and I will start all over again. I made it to 11 days, but it needs to be a month, a year, the rest of my life. I hope I never have to write another one of these. I'll work even harder to make my dream life a reality.
 

dbegazo11

Member
I've fallen down twice since the last time. Today's my first clean day since then. I need to get back here more and try to express my struggle. I fall down and I was ashamed but everyone trips up. We just need to make sure we don't the next time. I need to see porn for what it truly is, a despicable thing that is trying to control and ruin my life.  Well, it won't.
 

dbegazo11

Member
Today at school was a lot of temptation. I'm almost like an animal at times, constantly thirsting after other girls. I mean, there's plenty of ass around my school, but the burning lust in me comes out a lot. I don't want this feeling anymore and I just want to be a happy and satisfied me. I know that I can make it through these hard times and see the light. There is hope, for true love, with no lust. I just want to feel pure both by thought and physically.
 

dbegazo11

Member
I need to end this now. Every day that goes by for this needs to be documented. So today's day 0. I will not bash myself for what I have done. The past is the past and I have a bright future ahead. I want to find real love, not artificial pleasure. It begins now.
 

quitforeverthenwin2

Well-Known Member
Just keep at it man! Stay consistent and invest in your recovery! Read up as much as you can, when you really know what is going on in your brain and you are aware of what is motivating you, things become a bit easier (although NOT AT ALL easy)
 
Started when I was in 8th grade and now I completed 12th
Initially it was not an addiction.but for last two years it's been worse. I can't maintain a two day streak. I came to this website after reading the book" our brain on porn". I haven't completed the book yet. It affected my studies a lot. And l am getting sandwiched between the regret of watching porn and depressions due to bad performance in my studies. The day I watch porn, I do not study for whole day and in this way I almost waste my 2/3 rd of month. But no more...
 

imsorrynotsorry

Active Member
From other perspective, you as young humans (i'm 35) live with something that is consuming so much time of your life and this leads to the problem of not being present. Later, after your studies or whatever and you look back to your teenage years, you'll realise that there were unmet opportunities because of the porn-brain and not being present. The porn brain is not who you are, so be brave to find out about who you are without P.
 
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