Today is technically 40 days its 12 here. Even though, I have been having bad urges I am glad I am continuing to be not using p. I realized something is that I would rather have the urges for p rather than to be actively using p. I've come very close to relapsing several times during this "streak" I am really happy I didn't. I will take urges over using the thing again any day, I just wish I would remember this when I would have these awful urges.