Hi, Shade!
What I was thinking when you were posting about manipulating your routers is- "Man, there's so much thought going into this, and thus ---> focus."
This 'focus' may now be shifting to "a plan"- which can be generally helpful, but hurtful if it becomes an obsession, or just another way for the beast-brain to kick around this habit. Sometimes thinking too much, even about 'not' doing it, works against us, or feeds the addiction.
You've tried this with blockers, how empowering it may be if you can say 'No' to these behaviors without blockers, manipulated routers, or the like?
I agree with Orbiter about the wife's knowing, which thankfully she's supportive. But it does add a layer of consideration that may work with us or against us. Something to certainly think about. For my own story, the level of shame attached to something my wife may say, or her questioning, or even interrogation- not to mention slight quips or jokes- are definitely something I, myself, could not deal with- and found it counter-productive to my own efforts.
Wishing you well, Shade!
