brokensoul
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I've been with my boyfriend just over a year. He initially told me he wasn't a porn watcher. Our first intimate evening there was no erection and he started yelling, "I don't need to deal with this shit"....etc. I knew immediately he was a porn addict. He then told me he was never really into it and hadn't even looked at porn in over a month. Our sex life after a year is still odd. He can rarely keep an erection and is never aroused by me visually. There has to be a lot of foreplay to stimulate him and he still can't maintain an erection. He said he was struggling with visual flashbacks and for the most part wouldn't look at me during sex. Since all of this he admitted he has been a PA for about 20 years and has only had one other relationship that he had to watch porn in order to even have sex with his gf. I believe he started this relationship with a lie. I'm concerned at this point if he's been honest about not viewing porn during our relationship. He recently added a blocker on his phone but it often disconnects. His home computer stopped working a few months ago. Is this normal to not be aroused for sex? I'm a physique model and other men have literally told him when we were out together what a lucky guy he is. He went months without ever complimenting me and he's finally engaging and enjoying touching. How long does this recovery take? Is "flashbacks" always a problem? Will he regress? Should I believe him? After 3 other relationships with PA's I'm scared. I never want to live that life again. I've literally been through it all. I constantly attract these guys. I want a pornless relationship for once in my life. If he lied to me in the beginning what does the future hold? I feel he's honest now....at least I hope he is.