Day 58...wife and I watched an old zombie movie last night, acting - terrible, plot - even worse, special effects - blatantly obvious...however, she enjoys that type of movie. Me, not so much. So, when she went to bed, I knew nothing would happen last night, I just gave her a slight hug, and encouraged her to wake me up in the morning...
Well, nothing, frustrations, very high. Been about 3 weeks since our last session. And a fairly aggressive case of blue nuts last night. So, a little later in the morning, I said let's go for a drive, and bring the dogs...we went to see my brother's lot, there's lots of sandstone there. Free stuff for my fire pit. Then stopped in at my parents for a few minutes to let the dogs run. Huge yard...get permission from my brother for sand stone, and dad can "donate" a bit of tailings.
***********trigger alert************
Get home, frustrations very high on the sexual release / relief side. I decide, since I can't start any outside projects, since she works from home and is starting at 5 pm...the dogs will bark, I call it a day and take a shower (roughly 2:30 pm). I get out of the shower, half mast, and her, from the couch, her eyes obviously focused where I was hoping...smiles and asks "what are you doing now?". To which I replied, sheepishly, "hoping"....she looks at the time on her phone, and says "ok".
When we were done, I asked (we sometimes are curious on performance, I doubt I'm the only one) scale of 1 - 10....without hesitation, "that, was an 11".
Frustrations, gone. We both admitted, we needed it.
What I find interesting now as the streak continues...I'm not fighting against the MO now...those are halfway easy. I don't want to break those streaks. It's fighting against the urge to look at P...that's the biggest fight, every, single, day...